From tation I made a po t ment wold    be ing her will be sorry,” he said.

        ‘ill she?“

        ‘Of course she will.“

        ‘I o go back. I t er.“

        ‘here?“

        ‘t Angelfield.“

        ‘Bones?“

        ‘One of ting today.“

        ‘Gracious.“

        ‘to get in toucer to ask    it. And er is dying. I ’t leave here. She needs me.“

        ‘I see.“ his voice was serious.

        ‘Don’t tell Mot Miss inter and er ire twins.“

        . t said, “You ake care,    you, Margaret?”

        ***A quarter of an er I tled into my seat o taking er’s diary out of my pocket.

        I so uand a great deal more about optics. Sitting    sig in tated, for s supposed to be in t all, but outside, getting    ake, of course, for I o look out of to see t sside, aoo, playing nicely for once.    I    a misleading glimpse of, to be precise, must    e in ted in tion (On refle! An unintended drollery!), it is t caused my misapprerangeness in tical o seeing t t expect to be, and at times o be else of interpreting every movement out of t reflected in a mirror presents itself in a very ving mao te dress. to guard against errors suco teaco vie preception, to abandon all ual modes of t. to be said in favor of suctitude in principle. to t its root ty to see afres    to be uood for turies.    live by sucime it ake if every aspect of experience o be scrutinized afrese of every day. No; in order to free ourselves from t is essential t e mucerpretation of to t lo deals    sometimes leads us astray and causes us to misinterpret a flas as a girl in a hings    be.

        Mrs. Dunnes mind does imes. I fear sook in very little of our versation about meal plans, and omorrow.

        I tle plan regarding my activities or.

        I old    great lengt Adeline demonstrates a type of mental disturba I ered nor read about before. I mentio ted developmental problems, and I saies and talent. One book I spoke of,    knoo give s and eviden t on to point out t insiste I iced in it, and to suggest    ions.

        tor smiled at me at tly, “Pere your oly tunity ime.

        I pointed out to    t case study for sud    I could devote a feing up my observations. I sketumber of trials and experiments t could be uaken to test my ouc tablis. After ted t t for all my experience, my formal qualifications are not grand enougo tempt a publis, as a    entirely fident of being able bring off sucious project. A man, if only telligent and resourceful, sensitive and stifiy experiend my case study, o make a better job of it.

        And in suc o ogether!

        I fear Mrs. Dunne is not    stay in tries to avoid responsibility for ions by maintaining t ted.

        Quite by calk of gs es on tely disappeared, only to be replaced by a novella by    Mrs. Dunne of titution. So read    given to practical jokes. Obviously it    makes it note a striking ce    a cleverer trick tory about a governess and t Mr. James exposes tent of tle about c all about governesses.

        It is do has begun.

        tion    kno is to e of it, I s myself cruel for inflig it upon t to break .    for Adeline? For so be t altered by t life. I s.

        time for anyt researc I o do one additional useful to versation today eacside t office. I told    I o Jo truant and t so me if t again    reason. So teac time    it is not time, and terres, I told     foolis not being able to tell inctive    is no    all iifying    o Jo doubt ion t time.

        I am not ing my diary mucely. I find t after ting, late at nigs I prepare every day about Emmeline’s progress, I am frequently too tired to keep up ivities. And I do    to keep a record of tor, on very important researe, o look bad remember. Pers or o furtifid intellectual isfying tance, Dr. Maudsley and I    stimulating versation on t of Emmeline’s use of pronouns. Ser ination to speak to me, and y to unicate improves every day. Yet t of    is resistant to development is tence of t person plural. “e    to t    to ttle parrot s “I” after me, but in t sentence, “e saten in thing.

        tor and I are mucrigued by ty. Is it simply an ingrained    of speeglis t ime rigself? Or does t to te identity from t of er? I told tor about imaginary friends t so many disturbed d togetions of t if t t tion causes a mental trauma suc tion of an imaginary tasy panion? e arrived at no satisfactory clusion but parted isfa of ed anoture study: linguistics.

        o be done, I find I am sleeping too little, ae my reserves of energy, inguisoms of sleep deprivation. I irritate myself by putting tting    nigells me t t I must urion at all of ts on tant tiredness are tor on our project.

        is o e about. I meant to e about our    our findings,    ttern of our minds, tand eat uandis us almost to do    ing tterns of our separate subjects, for instao dratention to somet o speak, for I    feel o me, and I raise my e ready for o point out    is.

        Skeptics mig me of magnifying a co a ual occurrence by imagination, but I o see t oget project— telligent people, I mean to say—a bond of unication develops bet    enly engaged on a task, tely sensitive to, eaiest movements, and    interpret t seeing tesimal movements. And it is no distra from trary, it en, for our speed of uanding is quied. Let me add one simple example, small in itself but standing in for tless otent upon some rying to see a pattern of betings on Adeline. Reaake an annotation in t tors    into it. I looked up to t e unscious of ion, alicipating ts. And ails relating to t, or else observations about ts of life and sce, and even ted    uaking.

        But I am sleepy, a lengt is really time to go to bed.

        I    ten for nearly a    offer my usual excuses. My diary disappeared.

        I spoke to Emmeline about it—kindly, severely, e and ts of punis (and yes, my met frankly, losing a diary touc personally)—but sio deny everytent and s knoances ed myself and find it o explain it    read a in ots and inner lives, ot ly.    it? Presumably it is t tempted    try to reduce it; it is usually    I am disappointed in her.

        If I o judge by er alone, I    s of t. But t remains t it ot have been anyone else.

        Jo ts sed to steal my diary, e, I remember clearly t t    missing. In case I    t tion around to tivities, and Jo Mrs. Dunne c racket, too, ” old me). S Jo t ot hem.

        And so, ed all ts I am obliged to believe t it was Emmeline.

        A I ot sure    in appearance, so distressed at being accused—and I am forced to ional factor at play    I o take into at? ter in t it gives rise to an uneasiness in me: I am suddenly over t none of my plans is destio e to fruition. Somet me ever since I came to t s to t me and frustrate me in every project I uake! I raced every step in my logic, I    find no fla still I find myself beset by doubt…    is it t I am failing to see?

        Reading over t paragrapruck by t uic lack of fiden my to is surely only tired makes me ted mind is proo o unfruitful avenues; it is not a good nig cure.

        Besides, it is all over no day for six, and ser, it er I came doo put it t see    to t tely. But it urned. So t, is there?

        I am so tired a I ot sleep. I eps in t, but o there.

        I fess it made me uneasy—makes me uneasy still—to t ttle book    of my possession even for t of anot disf. I ot    terpret certain tten, for ly rut I e, I am pering at speed, may sometimes express myself in a    could be misinterpreted by anot    into ten (tor and t event— ing about at all really), I    see t t appear to a stranger in a lig from ended, and I    troy t    to, for t I most    to keep, to read later,    project.

        ific friends be a source of joy? It is no less stific for t, is it?

        But pero stop ing altogete, evee reader s my s my meaning, and makes me unfortable in ts.

        It is very aggravating to be preseo oneself in a lig from t is clearly a false light.

        I    e any more.

        Endings
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