Dedicated to il, my cousin in Japan
Siddep of ransformed, and s aing over tant beacs palm-trees. At nigars in tions and t of ting like a boat in trees, stars, animals, clouds, rainboeni mountains imes all of to Sidding, deceptive veil before rust, destio be peed aroyed by t, si tial existence, si noayed on t to be at searcrue essence, did not aim at a iful it t searciful ars, beautiful ream and t and t and tle, tterfly. Beautiful and lovely it o o distrust. Differently t tly t cooled ly tream and tern, tasted. S ts, every ly areasures, full of joy. Sidd, ing ing for its dinner; propelling t, in fear, of ter; t of strengt of ty eddies of ter, uously ing.
All of ted, and seen it; been . No. Ligars and moon ran t.
On tavana, tea ed one. Again o ted one, every onis t t really kno at time. o Gotama: reasure a teac t teament--it to experience, rue t ime t man, in its essence bearing ternal ceristics as Bra never, ed to capture it in t of t. itely not being t tacle of t also t, not tional mind, not t ty to drao develop previous ts in to ne ill on ts and learned knotened on ts as ty timate meaning eo, boto be played o be sed nor overestimated, from bot voices of t truto be attentively perceived. ed to strive for not for o strive for, d t time, in t doree, , uree, and igation, s, ablutions, nor prayer, o obey like t to aernal and, only to to be ready like thing else was necessary.
In t raanding in front of ic. Sad o and kissed Govinda any more, but a popped out of t rongly tasted t. It tasted of , of animal and flo, of every joyful desire. It intoxicated , and in t, a dark call of an oly.
, to get , ter s of the m.
"tiful river," o his panion.
"Yes," said t;a very beautiful river, I love it more ten I eo it, often I o its eyes, and always I . Muc;
"I tor," spoke Sidd;I I could give you for your ality, my dear, and also no payment for your a ;
"I did see it," spoke t;and I expected any payment from you and no gift s to bear. You anotime."
"Do you t; asked Siddha amusedly.
"Surely. too, I oo, Samana, your friendse me, ;
Smiling, ted. Smiling, Sidd t;; ;all I meet on my pat to receive to be friends, like to obey, ttle. Like c;
At about noon, of ttages, treet, led, but timidly fled from tream, and by tream, a young o is tom among travellers, and asked ill o go to reacy. t up and came to ifully mouter en already, and rue t t alone in t at nig alloo alking, s foot on one and made a movement as a o initiate t kind of sexual pleasure extbooks call "climbing a tree". Sidd ing up, and sin t o tly doo t. Looking up, and racted pupils, begging h desire.
Sidd desire ay moving; but since oucated for a moment, t. Politely, ted urned a steps into the bamboo-wood.
On ty before t to be among people. For a long time, s, and tra t nig roof for a long time he has had over his head.
Before ty, in a beautifully fenced grove, traveller came across a small group of servants, bots. In t, carried by four servants in an oral sedan-c a ress, on red pillo trao tcs, ts, sa. Under black o to face, a brigended and painted in a and call neck rising from a green and golden garment, resting fair s over ts.
Siddiful s rejoiced. raig t in t eyes fragrant, knoiful and disappeared into t as well.
tering ty, Sidd, antly felt drao t about it, and only norance, rustful, ing.
I am still a Samana, , I am still an ascetid beggar. I must not remain like t be able to ehis. And he laughed.
t person old t tesan, and t, aside from ty.
tered ty. Now he had a goal.
Pursuing y to suck ed treets, stood still on ted on tairs of stone by tant, stories of Viss by t t, and early in t ers came into ant s it to take he river.
e in ternooiful Kamala approading at trance, made a boesans greeting. But t servant rain ioo o inform ress t a young Brao talk to er a urned, asked ing, to folloo a pavilion, w h her.
"erent you already standing out terday, greeting me?" asked Kamala.
"Its true t Ive already seen and greeted you yesterday."
"But didnt you yesterday wear a beard, and long in your ;
"You o bee a Samana, and pato ty, and t one I met, even before I ered ty, o say to you, o uro t to turn my eyes to tiful ;
Kamala smiled and played ;And only to tell me to me?"
"to tell you to tiful. And if it doesnt displease you, Kamala, I o ask you to be my friend and teac of t art degree."
At this, Kamala laughed aloud.
"Never before to me, my friend, t a Samana from t came to me ao learn from me! Never before to me, t a Samana came to me orn loin-e, and t tiful e."
Quot;Already I am starting to learn from you. Eveerday, I le rifles, and I reac goal, erday: to be your friend and to learn t Ill learn quickly, Kamala, I youre supposed to teacs get to it: You arent satisfied clot s money?"
Laug;No, my dear, satisfy me yet. Clot ty clotty ss of money in s for Kamala. Do you kno no? Did you mark my ;
"Yes, I ; Sidd; mark able matc tell me, beautiful Kamala, arent you at all afraid of t, ;
"ever for supid Samana from t, ;
&qu, t afraid of anytiful girl. you."
"No, Samana, I am not afraid of t e and grab eal ion, and ? No, for tever o give and to is, precisely like t is also iful and red is Kamalas mout just try to kiss it against Kamalas obtain a single drop of sness from it, tained by begging, buying, receiving it as a gift, finding it i, but it ot be stolen. In t y, if a pretty young man like you to tackle it in suc;
Sidd;It y, Kamala, you are s y. No, I s lose a single drop of sness from your mout is settled: Siddurn, once ill lacks: clot speak, lovely Kamala, couldnt you still give me one small advice?"
"An advice? ? like to give an advice to a pnorant Samana, ;
"Dear Kamala, to, t Ill find t quickly?"
"Friend, many o kno do urn. to obtain money. migo do?"
"I t. I fast."
"Not;
"Not yes, I also e poetry. ould you like to give me a kiss for a poem?"
"I o, if Ill like your poem. s title?"
Sidder about it for a moment, these verses:
Into epped tty Kamala, At traood tuss blossom, Bo man, and smiling Kamala t to pretty Kamala.
Kamala loudly clapped ts ged.
"Beautiful are your verses, oruly, Im losing not;
Silted oue, Kamala kissed onis Sidd augrolled ed er t oo be a long, a ested sequence of kisses, everyone different from till to receive. Breatanding onis tself before his eyes.
"Very beautiful are your verses," exclaimed Kamala, "if I for you to earn t of money, if you to be Kamalas friend."
"to kiss, Kamala!" stammered Siddha.
"Yes, to do, t lack clots, and all beautiful t you able to do anyt ting, making poetry?"
"I also kno; said Sidd;but I do not to sing t I do not to speak tures--"
"Stop," Kamala interrupted ;Youre able to read? And e?"
"Certainly, I do t;
"Most people t. I also t do it. It is very good t youre able to read and e, very good. You ill find use for t;
In t, a maid came running in and wo resss ear.
"tor for me," exclaimed Kamala. " yourself a;
But to to give te upper garments. it fully uanding o a garden- pats as a gift, led into tly admoniso get of t being seen.
tently, old. Being aced to t, o get out of t making a sound. tently, uro ty, carrying ts uravellers stay, ioned words a word ed a piece of rice-cake. Peromorrow, , I will ask no one for food any more.
Suddenly, pride flared up in o o beg. o a dog and remained food.
"Simple is t; t Sidd;It presents no difficulties. Everyt, toilsome, and ultimately ill a Samana. No lessons in kissing, ;
y long before, turned up the following day.
"t ; s to ;ting you at Kamasy. If you into , broe to be too modest! I do not you to bee , you s be satisfied arting to get old and lazy. If rust you ."
Sidd t eaten anyterday and today, s for bread and fruits and treated o it.
"Youve been lucky," sed, "Im opening one door after anot;
Sidd;Yesterday, I told you I kneo , and to fast, but you t t it is useful for many t tupid Samanas are learning and able to do many pretty t, erday, I ill a serday I and upon."
"ell yes," sted. "But ;
"Dear Kamala," said Siddraigo , "o yrove, I did t step. It ion to learn love from t beautiful moment on I out. I kne you gla trance of t."
"But ;
"You er, it est course to ttom of ter. t is er, doing anyt stirring; s tracts let anyter oppose t Sidd fools call magid of ed by means of ted by daemons, to to , if o fast."
Kamala listeo he look from his eyes.
"Per is so," sly, "as you say, friend. But per is also like t Sidd tune is ing towards ;
it;I seac my glance s alune so me out of your dire!"
IthE ChILDLIKE PEOPLE
Sidd to Kamas, ed into a rics led s into a ced ter of the house.
Kamasered, a sly, smootelligent, cautious eyes, ely, t and t greeted one another.
"I old," t began, "t you you seek to be in t. Migitute, Bra you seek to serve?"
"No," said Sidd;I bee destitute and itute. You s Im ing from time."
"If youre ing from t destitute? Arent tirely possessions?"
"I am possessions," said Sidd;if t you mean. Surely, I am possessions. But I am so voluntarily, and t destitute."
"But o live of, being possessions?"
"I t of t, sir. For more t possessions, and about of w I s;
"So youve lived of t;
"Presumable t is. After all, a merc also lives of ;
"ell said. But take anyturn."
"So it seems to be indeed. Everyoakes, everyone gives, suc;
"But if you dont mind me asking: being possessions, o give?"
"Everyone gives gives merceaceac;
"Yes indeed. And no to give? is it t youve learned, o do?"
"I t. I fast."
"ts everyt;
"I believe, ts everyt;
"And ? For example, ting-- good for?"
"It is very good, sir. o eat, fasting is test t learo fast, o accept any kind of service before t may be o do so. But like t calmly, ience, ime o besiege it. t fasting is good for."
"Youre rig for a moment."
Kamas turned o ;
Sidd tract ten doo read out its tents.
"Excellent," said Kamas;And e somet;
e aurhe paper.
Kamas;riting is good, tter. Being smart is good, being patient is better."
"It is excellent o e," t praised ;Many a till o discuss oday, Im asking you to be my guest and to live in t;
Sidded, and lived in t to prepared a batiful meal Sidde once a day, and ate nor did old rade, se-rooms, sions. Sidd to kno and spoke little. And t to t, forced o treat ed en Sidd ried o learn precisely, but tents of ouc.
in Kamas in daily, at ted by ed beautiful Kamala, ty clot s as ender, supple ill a boy and endency to plunge blindly and insatiably into lust like into a bottomless pit, augarting t sc be be taken giving pleasure, and t every gesture, every caress, every touc of t , it and unleas. Saug lovers must not part from one anoter celebrating love, one admiring t being just as defeated as torious, so t art feeling fed up or bored a evil feeling of iful and smart artist, became udent, life, nit he business of Kamaswami.
t passed to duties of ing importaers and tracts on to into t of discussing all important affairs Siddtle about rid t ed in a fortunate manner, and t Sidd, in ess and equanimity, and in t of listening and deeply uanding previously unkno;t; o a friend, "is no proper merd s our business. But mysterious quality of to business-affairs, t of by a loss."
t: "Give s for you a ts, but let of t;
Kamas Siddtle about t, ed it y; turned out badly!"
It seemed indeed, as if care about t oime, ravelled to a village to buy a large of rice t o anot. ayed for several days in t village, treated to tion of a urremely satisfied from rip. Kamasurned back rig ed time and money. Sidd;Stop scolding, dear friend! Not me bear t loss. I am very satisfied rip. I ten to kno;
"ts all very nice," exclaimed Kamasly, "but in fact, you are a merc after all, one ougo t you ravelled for your amusement?"
"Surely," Sidd;surely I ravelled for my amusement. For en to kno, I ravelled back, being annoyed and in a my purcime and money like tiness. And if Ill ever return to buy an uping , or for mig s t time. So, leave it as it is, my friend, and dont until ts be satisfied ;
Futile s attempts, to vince Sidd e e oteo Kamasor seemed to be uo pay, Kamas it o utter a feo o sleep badly. ;ould you please not kid me Ive learned from you is of fiss as may be cise. I learo t to be to learn from me."
Indeed rade. to provide ear and curiosity s, s of fooliso be as alien and distant to alking to all of till a ted ing fae. oiling, sao o entirely untle pleasures, for being sliging eac pain at wions w feel.
o everyt old ory of y a any different t -vendor o reproaed curiously and ried to ua tle bit rigurned a person o c o dra out of o appeal to o get ied, s, t , and tire game and ts just as muco occupy them.
At times , deep in , a dying, quiet voice, ed quietly; . And trange life s of t times, real life still passing tou t, o do several times of sud y to participate in all of tions of time , really to live, really to act, really to enjoy and to live instead of just standing by as a spectator. But again and again, o beautiful Kamala, lear of love, practised t of lust, in ed ood ter to uand o him.
Once, o ;You are like me, you are different from most people. You are Kamala, noto ;
"Not all people are smart," said Kamala.
"No," said Sidd;ts not t as smart as I, and still , o t people, Kamala, are like a falling leaf, umbles to t otars, ted one, Ill never be able tet is t Gotama, ted one, eag to eacrus every t in teac;
Kamala looked at ;Again, youre talking about ; s;again, youre s."
Siddy or forty different games Kamala kneer; o make love, , mas. For a long time, siced ed erful skills, until ed aed exed by her side.
tesa over ook a long look at ired.
"You are t lover," sfully, "I ever saro ime, o bear your c, my dear, youve remained a Samana, a you do not love me, you love nobody. Isnt it so?"
"It mig; Siddiredly. "I am like you. You also do not love--ise love as a craft? Per love. ts t."
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