Deations fr liquors e topic of sober declaimers in all ages, and er-drinking critics. But ient is to be cured, unfortu tain. No force oblige a man to raise o is as easy as not to steal, not to tell lies.
Alas! to pilfer, and too bear false ness, itutional tendency. tions indifferent to t t instance of t off a murmur. tc a figure in speegue of tural deligrut omed to scatter traries. But -----
Ourdy moralist, tout nerves and a strong ouc tten, first learn virtuously mingle ion. trample not on t not, under so terrible a penalty as infamy, a resuscitation from a state of deat as real as t from by a miracle.
Begin a reformation, and easy. But steps not like climbing a mountain but going t if tem must undergo a c as t ion of form in some is? o flaying alive be to be go sinks under sucruggles to be founded inacity itutional y, no e of tim, body and soul?
I state, o abstain but for one evening,-- tion back its first es, t en it,-- in truggle, and ty of getting rid of t sensation at any rate, I o scream out, or cry aloud, for trife hin him.
ate to declare, t to make to mankind. I see ting from t is to my oure alone I am atable for t I upon it.
I believe t titutions, robust ; all events iful a measure, do no to muddle ties, pered. t laug a ryiest, sucic exercises are dangerous. It is to a very different description of persons I speak. It is to to t of some artificial aid to raise ts in society to c it. t of our drinking. Suc fly t instance, if t mean to sell term of life.
tieto t time pretty mucude. My panions one or tamp. I rose early, to bed betimes, and ties rust in me unused.
About t time I fell in order. terous spirits, sitters up a-nigants, drunke seemed to t about t, or after midnigy called fancy I certainly possessed a larger s up for a professed joker! i ted for su, ion to test difficulty imes of finding o express my meaning, a natural nervous impediment in my speech!
Reader, if yifted o any cer but t of a . ig relisongue disposing you to t sort of versation, especially if you find a preternatural floting in upon you at t of a bottle and freso it as you est destru. If you ot crus ake for suc it, give it some ote an essay, pen a cer or description, -- but not as I do noears trig down your cheeks.
to be an object of passion to friends, of derision to foes; to be suspected by strangers, stated at by fools; to be esteemed dull ty, to be applauded for ty emporaneous exercise of t faculty ion give; to be spurred on to efforts ; to be set on t provoke mirtred; to give pleasure and be paid ing malice; to silled into airy breato tickle vain auditors; te miserable morroe ba little insiderable drops ing applause,-- are th.
time, dissolving all es , more kind to me taste or peion, at lengto ty of my first friends. No trace of t but in troduced, and ts till, and exercise ample retribution for any supposed iy t I may y of tohem.
My more immediate panions tally tane, I do not kno if to do ain, I so esg t. I came to teams of my late over-ed notions of panio fuel o feed my old fires into a propensity.
t one, from professional s, and anotom derived from obacco. t le trap to re-take a backslidient. transition, from gulping do innocuous blasts of dry smoke, e. s us at barter; and off a ne an old infirmity, tis odds but t s trick upon us of t (paratively) obacchan himself.
It io carry t first liquor, I took my degrees tronger er, to tions er tinually, until t to none, and so to all. But it is eful to disclose ts of my tartarus.
I sy of believing me, o tell t tobae, to it. o quit it, a feeling as of ingratitude arted up; upon personal claims, and made t casually in a book, as or in t;plete Angler" breaks upon a m pipe in t delicate room Piscatoribus Sacrum, broken doance of ill to realise it,-- s asding vapours curled, its fragrance lulled, and terings versant about it, employing every faculty, extracted ting it came to darken, from a quick solace it turo a ive relief, to a restlessness and dissatisfa, to a positive misery. stands fessed in all its dreadful truto it beyond tion. Bone of my bone-----
Persons not aced to examiives of tions, to re up tless nails t rivet t, or pere as to, may recoil from ture. But esting friends, a ing o goodness, to ?
I after Cio, in o a man bound to t of a tree. Sensuality is soot is nailing o a brant of time is applying a so , tion of past ration of present pleasures, languid enjoyment of evil ter imbecility to good, a Sybaritic effeminacy, a submission to boantaneous, or tter forerunning tion-all ted in one point of time. er. But , because I t of my oion.
Of t t it sers out of t to all t set a foot in t upon some neo my desolation, and be made to uand is ion and o stop it, ao feel it all ting from o perceive all goodness emptied out of not to be able tet a time o bear about teous spectacle of nigs repetition of t of o be delivered,-- it s mantliation; to make eeth
and not undo em
to suffer Et DAMNAtION to run thro em.
Yea, but (met) if sobriety be to uand, if ts of a cool braio be preferred to t state of ed excitement you do not return to ts from not h rec?
Rec!-- Oransport me back to t from t clear spring could slake any s ir up in turn to t, t! In my dreams I sometimes fancy t purling over my burning tongue. But my omacs it. t w.
But is t total abstinend t you may tain to my experience, utter trut t I find. In my stage of (I speak not of s less firmed-for some of to be most prudential), in tage op s of t measure o draorpor and sleep, tic sleep of to aken all. t t is, I , trial. o kno, ate in ion: for it is a fearful trut tellectual faculties, by repeated acts of intemperance, may be driven from tion, t ministries, until t at last to depend, for t maions of ting energies, upon turning periods of tal mado ion. tervals. Evil is so far his good.*
[Footnote] * ed picture, rembling er in tive steadiness o go task, in an imperfect mao a temporary firmness derived from a repetition of practices, t of werribly.
Be period of life, reduced to imbecility and decay. my gains, and ts w cup.
t I titution (for a endency to any malady as it o be. I scare o ail anyt e pains or aches.
At t time I er six in ter. I as in my o feeliretc to t possible extent, is a forecast of t lies before me, wis I could ill, or never awaked.
Life itself, my y, of an ill dream. In time I stumble upon dark mountains.
Business, ed to my nature, yet as somety to be go uakeer upon y, nos, and am ready to give up an occupation y test ission given me by a friend, or any small duty o a tradesman, &c., s me as a labour impossible to be got tion are broken.
ttends me in all my intercourse promise t a friends to tion are deadened hin me.
My favourite occupations in times past ertain. I do notion for ever so s a time kills me. tray dition long intervals, tempt at e of t, o me.
ted me in ory or poetic fi, noears, allied to dotage. My broken and dispirited nature seems to sink before anyt and admirable.
I perpetually catcears, for any cause, or is inexpressible y adds to a sense of serioration.
tances, ing it alh me.
S up t?
I am a poor nameless egotist, o sult by t tention, if oucold I am e to. Let op in time.
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