It    pleased only a fe times it seemed to displease even two friends.

        At first it ime of it. All o o give in to an attra    t it first.    of time s destiny, its depts significe. For a long time    o er o lead oion. ito ted te.

        Foldmund it    first, a valesce.    time imidated, by tty girl. Deep io noion, te t by t o lead ted t youtoic    t furtive enter, at lifes first appeal to    t being of femininity    t te e oed to love, to abandon    sinning, to give    to an admired older friend, more intelligent to spiritualize to transform to nobler fires of sacrifice.

        But during t spring of t unfamiliar obstacles, ued, inpreening demands. It never occurred to o see radi, t opposite of    t only love, only sincere devotion o fuse to oo    differences and bridge trasts. But ive t abando, grateful ogeto    seem to uand, to tolerate dreamy strolls on pat led in no particular dire. ters of sc passages in books, opened neo approve of e often o be smiling, seemed not to take    t t mere pedantry, not just telligent, but t t, sometant. But en made .

        Actually Narcissus reized ies only too o ty, tal force of nature i on feeding Greek to a fervent young soul, on repaying an i love rary,    altogetoo muco    a natural dition but a miracle. to fall in love    permitted    be tent emplation of t. Not even for a sed could    t ined for monkisicism and a lifelong striving for saintliness, Narcissus ruly destined for t life. to ted only in its    form. Narcissus did not believe in Goldmunds calling to be an ascetic. o read people more clearly t, and y. ure and uood it deeply, in spite of trasts, because it     ture s of upbringing and paternal    of t    do: reveal t to its bearer, free rue nature. It    per would make him lose his friend.

        ite caution o    by before a serious approace of t, tring aut betion only to    breaktried to discover    o. It turned out to be less difficult ted. Goldmund    to fess t nig tside t, ed enoug     a moment ly ed at t, Goldmund immediately said, "If only you    and able to fess me; I    matter in fession and I    I couldnt tell my fessor."

        Carefully, s;You remember to be ill," ured. "You t ten, si en. Per notice, but I    m."

        "You ; cried ;But I    o utter a    moment; I t I could never face you again. You ;

        Narcissus groped ahead.

        "I uand," ;It must    for you. Suco tears in front of a stranger, and a teac t, it e out of cer. ell, t m I merely t you otle may berangely. But you    ill. You    is o somet overpo;

        Goldmund ated a sed, t;Yes, somets pretend youre my fessor; sooner or later t be told."

        itold ory of t night.

        Smilingly, Narcissus replied: "ell yes, going to t one    do all kinds of forbidden t is t; t you it ttle foolisudents?    is so terrible about t?"

        Angrily,     out: "You do talk like a scer! You kno is all about! Of course I dont see a great sin in breaking to play a student prank, alts ly part of tory training for cloister life."

        "Just a moment, my friend," Narcissus called s;Dont you kno many pious fat t kind of preparatory training? Dont you kno a rels life may be one of test roads to saint;

        "O lecture!" protested Goldmund. "It    a trifling disobedie     girl. I t describe tion to you. It    if I gave in to tit, if I merely reac to touco turn back, t sin    give me up ever. t it iful dream, of all virtue, of all love of God and good."

        Narcissus nodded, deep in t.

        "Love of God," ;is not al    simple. e kno is ten in ts. But God is not tained only in ts, you knoesimal part of s and be far from God."

        "But dont you uand?" Goldmund plained.

        "Certainly I uand. You feel t    t crus you could fess t;

        "Yes, t is exactly ;

        "You see, I do uand. Youre not so terribly er all; tory of Eve and t is certainly no idle tale. A you are n t if you    Daniel, or your baptismal saint, tom, or a bis, even a simple monk. But you arent. You are a student, and alto remain in ter for life, or your fat for you, still you    taken any voed. If some pretty girl o tempt you one of to give in to temptation, you    ;

        "No ten vo; Goldmund cried edly. "But an unte sacred, somet you see t to many ot not to me? You    been secrated eitaken any vo, but you    yourself to tou? Isnt t    you t you    you long ago, in your , make t    yet been made    you feel bound by it forever? Arent you exactly like me?"

        "No, Goldmund, I am not like you, not in too, am keeping an unspoken vo respect you are rig I am in no    I am going to say to you noerly unlike me you are."

        Goldmund unned; Narcissuss expression and toted no tradi. .    ake    all seriously? Did    a ge friendship were beginning all ain.

        Narcissus no longer    about ture of Goldmunds secret. It     possible t t ter antagonism in suciful, ? t be a secret enemy    t urn    ural urges. to be discovered, o be jured up and made visible; only t be defeated.

        Mean ed by rayed.    nature. Even tain t no vice could be suspected ed to see toget seemed t tting t from tly, as tocrats for    in keeping er spirit, not .

        Many t tions, slander—reaiel. y years of cloister life; to cloister life and    tradition, sometimes amusing, sometimes a danger. ed, tervene. Suc, exclusive friends undangerous, but since    for an instant doubt its purity, o let it take its course. If it    been for Narcissuss exceptional position among students and teac    ated to place a feing rules bet    good foldmund to es and to be in close association only eac    permissible to disturb traordinary, ed Narcissus, ea?    proved eaco partiality and fulness, t    to be     knes, of rating, perly presumptuous, insigo people.    overestimate ts, o s; but    doubt t Narcissus iced sometudent Goldmund, t ter ter. ,    noticed anyt Goldmund, apart from ure, and perain eagerness, a some made    ill a student and a boarder, as to ter and o fear t Narcissus ure tou.     i ain spiritual pride and erudite arrogance; but ticular pupil; it    and see.     o rule over average ratrong or exceptional cers, o sig going to let ed by suspis;    eful for tional rusted to his care.

        Narcissus pondered a great deal about    of spotting aionally reizing ture ainy of otold    Goldmund. All t    in too clearly: rong ually, perist, but at any rate a person    potential for love, o give ive senses so set on leading tic life of t at great lengt it.    Goldmunds fatermination. Could t?    spell    over o make    tiny, y?    sort of a person en iionally touc of tly spoken of     imagine    see    not strange and suspicious? old a story about a trout    as a boy, ated ted a vivid picture. ant, po figure in Goldmunds life, o describe ly, to jure up vivid images of    t like imes    w gave o his soul?

        Goldmund also brooded a great deal.    eion of not being taken seriously, of being treated a little like a c did it mean     like him?

        Yet t fill all of Goldmunds days.    able to too long at a time. to be done io see ter,    terms. unity to ride tenants, especially en stalk otters es flour,    by t. Alt time ill remained a number of s and pleasures. And usually to o sing in tudent co say a rosary in front of a favorite altar, to listen to tiful Latin of to see tacles and ors glitter t venerable saints figures standing on ns, ts s, St. Jacob    and pilgrims satchel.

        draoone figures; o t tood i relationso al, omnist godfatected and guided    t bond and love for tals of tar ors, for tifully profiled staves and s of sprouting leaves t burst from tone of tly and intensely. It seemed a valuable, intimate secret to , outside of nature s plants and creatures, ted a sed, silent, man-made nature: ts, and plants of stone and imes ried to draw real flowers, horses, human faces.

        And antly recurring r meaning adly, or    t     oo, y. urgy.

        And every so often, for brief moments, ra    i annoyed and bored o find ion and ess. Every so often art a taciturn bed ing;    it for an iating     ention, an invitation to "go to t; tened and quickly drao tet t o think of her any more.
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