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Chapter Four

        ter I got t , t Briar    and long, it mig time.

        It    all ts of to get used to ts, and for to get used to me. For a    care for me. I o tco ? All rig     really    a joke and no-one laug it.) And C look at me as if oo afraid to speak; and Mrs Cakebread y kind of way, Ohank you.

        I supposed to , reminding them

        of all t quiet and out-of-t a look at. tiles took me aside. S mind, Miss Smittle    say    place— Sarted everyto me .—I t say     Briar o keep very mindful of tings of t;

        It turned out t Mrs Cakebread ed, by my saying good-m to tc to    I meant to tease    all. It    trifling sort of nonsense, and enougo make a cat laug it o t o you, if all you o look foro for t forty years rays and baking pastry. Any, if I o get anyceps. I gave C of ce, t I en; I gave Margaret a piece of sted soap; and to Mrs Cakebread I gave a pair of togs t Gentleman    for me from the crooked warehouse.

        I said I    Cairs in to me after t.

        ts like a servant. A servant says, All for my master, and means, All for myself. Its t t I t bear. At Briar, t all over sneaking little matters t o t from Mr Lillys gravy to sell on t to tc Mrs Cakebread did. Or, pulling ttons from Mauds c;    did. I , after tc er after all. Mr ay, no, in a place like o Mr Lillys cellar, on a . You never saw such a

        s key ! And tiless pantry,    sray—and Id see    no-one ipping ttom of all to one great cup, and lus away.

        I sa—but, of course, I kept it all to myself. I    to make trouble. It o me, if o deat of my time, any used to oo. S; but t enoug didnt    me to indulge t le to take a kind of pleasure in tidying of o dressing infants. I greo dressing her.

        Lift your arms, miss, Id say. Lift your foot. Step here. Now, here.

        times s say. I turning of all my limbs.

        I did, in time. I kne sed. I kne sending up eggs, I    and told o send soup instead.

        Clear soup, I said. Clear as you    make it. All rigiles, s like it. Mrs Stiles dont o eat it, I ansiles aint Miss Mauds maid. I am.

        So te it all up. . S down    splashed.

        Its only er, I said, seeing        you. S    anote ealing gla less. Finally she said:

        I ter tle fat in it..."

        t o go into    her a fresh pair of

        aloves myself, to sit and c. Let me do it, I said, undoing tton at ; and t first s let me toucime—since I said I le— so let me.    t ly , and gre of oo smooto be rig    t . I    of my lap and tand and    black. Suro asimes Id stand and look h

        her.

        For t to notice, at Briar, t t cead, t: to to see    ed or dropped. In tumn, it floods, Maud said, and all t care for t. And some nige mist es creeping from ter, almost to t gave bes stle t is freezing already. Do you see    struggles? It s to flo till it. Do you see, Sue? he rushes?

        Sc of    ts only er, miss.

        Only er?

        Broer.

        She blinked.

        You are cold, I said to t too long. I put    mine. I did it, not tayed stiff. But t day—or perhe day

        after t—sook my arm again, and    so stiff; and after t, I suppose urally ... I dont k I    it and tried to look back. But by t time ime her.

        S a girl, after all; for all t t a girl t idying one of . S t s, but t    B. e played for matc first; ttle ters, made of mot moons; and after t,    and cool on till    doly, making tcer a , too.

        alked. So alk of London. Is it truly se? sres? And hey call, fashion-houses?

        Aing-houses. And every kind of shop. And parks, miss.

        Parks, like my uncles?

        A little like, Id say. But filled h people, of course.—Are you low, miss, h?

        I am    doe filled, would you say?

        I am o your two.

        e filled, you say, h people?

        Of course. But dark. ill you cut?

        Dark? Are you sure? I t London o be brig lamps fired—I believe—h gas?

        Great lamps, like diamonds! I said. In tres and    t—

        Dance, Sue?

        Dance, miss.    to dance, of course?

        I— Saug. Do you t be a lady, in London— t is, so go t be a lady in London, a not dance?

        S, I suppose. S you like to learn, ter.

        Could I? Sful, t sure . . .

        I guessed ing in London, who could.

        I c for a minute or tting up. It is easy, look—

        And I seps, to a couple of dary tood in my arms like    .    on turkey carpet. So t t back; and t    it sear. tleman, remember. Of course, it er, —

        tumbled again, and    and fell into separate c o c stuck out like a little Dutce.

        S my eye, and smiled; till looked frightened.

        I s I, Sue?

        You s t moment, I believed it. I made    ero    I remembered t, of course, she never would.

        For, te—t so !—per rat knoe of a person in a story or a play.    and s-up, it made t over a pigs o t I lemans stolen fortu made t    not first I o myself, leman es Ill do ts . But Id say it, t     t I    muc t    I suppose t    toget a time; and it o be kind to    too     and feel cruel.

        Of course, it    for o talk; but more often so be silent, and t    nigurning, turning of s—feel leman,    old    ser my old aunty, t o be , for    made me home-sick.

        And t    t Maud    ion. I only t t later, t time, I sater?

        Songue. I oot t cuts me.

        Let me see, I said.

        I took o tood h her fa my hands

        a me feel about ed toot at

        once.

        ell, t is sharper— 1 began.

        ts tooth, Sue? she said.

        to say, miss, I ans to    out a to matche flying scissors.

        Maud stroked ten by a snake, Sue? she asked me.

        could you say? o t. Per ry living. I said I didnt. S me, t t ted tootil t aken off. I    many times, s.—Of course, infants rat. Maud stood very still, ed,    back,    first closed t me, .    lifted and sank, as s, from t tered, and s my eye.

        And, as sepped a ter on a tray. For Miss Maud, ssey. I looked at t o it must be Gentlemans. My    gave a dip. So did Mauds, I think.

        Bring it ill red    rembling.

        I c to, as I moved about aking up books and custing aurn tter and fumble —of course, s tear t me, and till trembling,

        but making a s    to say it o    s it toned one glove and put o tter from t in .

        t out    sig t from it.

        Good ne? I said; si I ougo.

        Sated. t is from Mr Rivers, in London; and o Briar, tomorrow!

        tayed on ; and in ternoon,    se even play at cards, but paced about times stood before toue,    all.

        I got t any of Gentleman, laying out t Street kitcold us all . t of Dainty.    o tell fortunes from a pack of cards. I , many times.

        I looked at Maud, standing dreaming at the mirror. I said,

        So knoure, miss? Did you kno you    read it, from he cards fall?

        t made urn from looking at o look at mine. Ser a moment,

        I t it .

        ell, but dont tell Margaret or Mrs Stiles, I said. My grandmother, you know, sy-princess.

        And after all, my granny mig. I put togeto ated, t beside me, spreading    skirt flat, saying,    must I do?

        I said s sit e, and ts t    ; ake t out t seven

        of t I t I remembered Daintys mot mig down seven.

        I looked    to knoune?

        Sening me!

        I said again, Do you really    to kno?    teac obey. It is very bad luck to ask to so be bound by tune you find here?

        I do, sly.

        Good, I said.    us see t part of it. t.

        I turned over t ts, folloting ig, I hen.

        I studied ting, and trife.

        Sared, t o . Go on, she said. her face ale now.

        Let us look, I said, at t t.

        I turh a flourish.

        tern old gentleman. the Cavalier of Spades—

        I took my time. Sowards me.

        s he Cavalier?

        I said ; and s me in suis of    sorry. S tur cards.

        I said, Miss, I must. Or all your luck will leave you. Look ure.

        I tur. the Six of Spades.

        A journey! I said. Perrip ..."

        S ans gazing at turned up. t one, s. S first.

        Queen of Diamonds, sh a sudden frown. hos she?

        I did not knoo turn up t after all, must he deck.

        t last. Great hink.

        Great     t and took t    and rose. I dont believe, s yrandmotoo fair in t believe it. And I dont like your fortuelling. Its a game for servants.

        Sepped aood again before t surn and say somet. But as s, s , and he pips.

        t card, after t, in t followed.

        t afternoon,    t of t nigful. S into bed, but    a little cup of er; and as I stood undressing I satle and slip t into t    time I sa. It made    day, trand of o    the bed.

        Bruso me, as sood for me to dress     se my c, Sue. S my fio her face, and pressed

        t mind if you bruise it. Id rate one!

        troubled me to alk of bruises. I said,

        Stand still, or I s be able to dress you at all.—ts better. Now, which gown will you have?

        the grey?

        too soft on ts say, the blue . . .

        t out tood before ted it tig. t me. S my brouff dress. She said,

        Your dress is rat it? I t to c.

        I said, C? this is all I have.

        All you    already.    o wearing for Lady Alice, wo you?

        I felt—and I t in feeling it—t Gentleman    me do o Briar    the one good gown. I said,

        ell, t is, miss, Lady Alice    s my frocks back, to take to India for here.

        Maud blinked her dark eyes and looked sorry. She said,

        Is t reat their maids, in London?

        Only the near ones, miss, I answered.

        to be near for,    and so spend your ms in. And per, for you to co wor?

        She door of her press. She said,

        No I never s long, I see. My uncle does not care to see me in a long skirt, s un    mind, of course, about

        you. You need only let dotle , of course?

        ell, I ainly used to taking stitd I could seraigo. I said, t , . It looked like it    ailors. Sudied me, and then said,

        Ory it, Susan, do! Look, I so undress me. See, I    do it, quite as ress!

        Stle nervously, all time s last. e migers!

        Sugged my old bro tand before to tig he figure of a lady.

        Of course,    ers,    bots. My dress shen, I should have fallen down and died.

        But to see me; and n . I stood, plug at t, o my bosom, tilting o see    looked. the parlour door.

        t, se pink. So t!

        Margaret came and made a curtsey, looking straig me. She said,

        I    e for your tray, mi— O you, tress, Im sure!

        Sanding in tain—looked girlisting er, and her dark eyes shone.

        Suppose, s o do    did, and mistake you for me?    hen?

        Again s the glass, and smiled.

        For it    it, to be taken for a lady?

        Its ed.

        And anyo get tarting early. I kept t to    turning tting out t about to do myself an injury, for teen-inc.

        No s. But , serrible books!

        S weeping, and wringing her hands.

        I took t aing for not be dressed in a sack. S een tleman    her.

        It    ao see    I kneending I kne migctle glass, to look at your fa?—and so keep my blood warm. And, A glass, Sue? hy should I need a glass?

        I t you    your ohan was usual.

        My oed in doing t?

        I t say, miss, Im sure.

        I kne Marlo four oclock, and t illiam Io meet it, as    for me. At t at t        I said nottle padded seat beside ttling panes and mouldy sand-bags, it    pla t s t ing at itctle gla to the house.

        I t, if t    love, te of them.

        At last s o    and gave a stifled sort of cry. S ing, on illiam Irap. t made    up and e aand at toget be Mr Rivers, miss? and se as t? ell, I suppose it is. how pleased my uncle will be!

        . So bid Mr Rivers    nohe grey?

        But Mr Lilly did not send for    it o pass on t Mr Rivers was arrived.

        And is Mr Rivers made fortable, in his old room? said Maud.

        Yes, miss.

        And Mr Rivers ired, I suppose, after his journey?

        Mr Rivers sent to say t olerable tired, and looked foro seeing Miss Lilly    supper.    turbing Miss Lilly before then.

        I see, s. t o tell Mr Rivers t s t any sort of disturbao be visited by he supper-hour came . . .

        S on like te and a    t off. Ser of an leman h her.

        epped into t look at me at first. his eyes were all for Maud. he said,

        Miss Lilly, you are kind to receive me ravel-stained and tumbled as I am. t is like you!

        le. As for tains— a mark upon o . idy;    little ring on    finger, but apart from t his hands were bare and very .

        to be—a leman. uro me at last, I found myself making sey and    shy.

        And , co I sepped toook my o me.    Briar, Sue. I ress.

        I said, I oo, sir.

        She is a very good girl, said Maud. She is a very good girl, indeed.

        S in a nervous, grateful kind of    to a stranger, feeling pusion, about y.

        Gentleman pressed my    it fall.     be good—I s be good, Miss Lilly—h you as her example.

        rose again. You are too kind, she said.

        at leman could but be, o be kind to,

        No    last s hen she laughed.

        And I t t time, t . S—I kne, seeing and beside h her eyes on his.

        Pigeons and geese. t clock sounded, and tarted and looked aleman said    oo long. I s supper, I h your uncle?

        itly.

        to t out of it o remember me, and    tomime, of patting at s, looking for s. o take it.

        ed my . It    Maud s overhear.

        I said, Osey, and o do toget    reend you try it: for I fear tsey; and Im certaihe wink.

        I dont tleman noticed, isfied    us. Maud looked o me, t silently to    knoil ser, to own for dinner.

        I sat and tossed t, bad s will gleam as well as good.

        But I t it in a distented sort of    know why.

        t nigayed an er supper, reading to o Gentleman in t seen t s iles o remark on it as ook our meals. I still passed my evenings in tciless pantry; and pretty dull evenings t, . I    doo find Margaret    piece of roasting . , plumping up e diso cook for.

        Sogs for tra ruffles. d made ting straig ool beside to one of Gentlemans boots.

        o tiles? Mr Rivers says t, in London, you may see eleps. s in pens in ts back.

        ell, bless my soul! said Mrs Stiles.

        Sened a brooc t was a m brooc.

        Eleps! I t. I could see t Gentleman o a coop of roosting    ttering. tter-bred treating of a servant. t a fi    a clever young person like    tood up and told trut ts; t Mr Rivers o marry Maud and steal ood and told t, t. t I was mad.

        tleman, over someone like me.

        And of course, I    about to tell t my ts to myself; and later, over pudding in ry, Mrs Stiles sat, fingering . Mr ay took o to serve up t of all of us, not glad t Gentleman had e.

        At least, I supposed I old myself, but just dont kno. Youll feel it, o meet, in a day or t    anotwo weeks, however, before we did. For of course, I had no

        reason for    Maud, into ts of t in, and o mine. Besides, t Briar    e like some great mec c. ter t    moving on our o room, on our set courses, until to our beds at nig as        into t .—Sometimes,     t I could almost    turning. I greo stop.

        ts ry does to you.

        leman came, ticks, t all    on, smoot    order. Maud did not go to o read to ook notes. S to    and se cards, or    o to trees and the graves.

        As fentleman:    seven, and took    in    eigures. Mr Lilly directed ures as ted up a little room fentleman to ures ty precious. I never saleman carried keys about o t room    or in it.

        til one oclock, took took ours aloe in silence. S    at all, but only sit ing. t a quarter to ts, papers and cards, a riangle—and s tly, in an order t    let me help. If a brush fell and

        I caug, sake everyts, triangle—a out all ain.

        I learned not to touco , as truck t a mier t tleman, to teach her her days lesson.

        At first, t to t an apple, a pear and a er-jug upon a table, and stood and nodded o paint t as -brus Gentleman    his head or screw up his eye and say,

        I declare, Miss Lilly, you are acquiring quite a method. Or,

        an improvement, on your sketth!

        Do you t ttle lean?    ougo practise my perspective?

        tive is, pertle at fault,    you , Miss Lilly, o stand before you! I am afraid of urn t eye upon me.

        , in a voice t art off strong and t, and breatating; and soo o a fire. Sry t again. time t like a banana. tleman    t he brush a bad one.

        If I migake you to London, Miss Lilly, to my oudio there!

        t ists life, in a    g artist friends. Maud said, Lady artist friends, too?

        Of course, —t to everyoaste. See ry ttle firmer.

        to    urned o his and said,

        ont you tell me    is you t speak plainly. I am not a child, Mr Rivers!

        You are not, ly, gazing into art. After all,    on, my opinion is mild enoug s your—your sex, and matters of creation. t have.

        S is t, Mr Rivers?

        y, ly, of mine.

        S still, to startle o tleman looked up too, and c made ill o me, to ed o roke.

        t o ture of t, and—O ran like a tear-drop. Gentleman said s not mind it, t e enoug to table, took up t. Maud kept a little pen-k and cut to t slices. o    one for    s juid brougo me.

        Almost ripe, I th a wink.

        o e it in t left beads of cloudy jui fully; and I licked mine; and Maud, for once, let ained, and sat    against    it, her look a dark one.

        e s. Real secrets, and soo many to t. ry noo sort out op and give it up, it makes my head spin.

        At last    try painting from nature. I guessed at once    meant. It meant t ake    to all t instru. I t, too. ill it rain today, do you think?

        s of ill cold as anyt just as everyone in t    to see Mr Rivers e back to it again, so noo lift and gro. topped rattling. turned pearly instead of grey. tables.

        In t t leman: er a sation, sake it; I t more easily, to ty stiffly, t ttle artful o pull il it o brus from art off space bet steadily t last, t about rousers. I sa all; for I ool. Sometimes te tet me. turn, and say,

        mind ter of a mile .

        Mr Rivers al t.     to paint, but really keeping alking in murmurs; and I o follear.

        Of course, I o    all. I    to tleman roper.

        I ccimes at en at t some fl bird t took    urn, and catc by time s h.

        You would swear, seeing    he loved her.

        You would swear, seeing    she loved him.

        But you could see t stering .    go too fast. ouc to let o guide ed. o o coget if    a little nearer s her gloves on.

        At last    t spot beside ting of t reading in t nig fretfully to imes took more sleeping-drops, and sometimes shivered in her sleep.

        I put my , till sill again.

        I er oo make    for no    , I kept    till it sleman o udy er in t passes!, I kne. But I kneoo, t    it as a pliment not to    to me, w all.

        I guessed little t.    speak plainly, but made great play ed out our calk in private; and just as it began to look as t c did—and it was Maud, in    way, w us .

        For sood at t    it, and said,

        the lawn.

        I    and stood beside rolling about tte. till rather low, made his shadow very long.

        Aint all? I said, gazing side Maud. S, and s ahen she said,

        O te . Poor Mr Rivers!

        udying tip of te, and blo it; noing o rouser pocket, searcc the window-glass.

        No? c believe ruck te ty minutes ago.    go to Uncle soon. No,    cs ..."

        S me and wrung    was breaking.

        I said, It    kill him, miss.

        But poor Mr Rivers, s take a matco ting te away. how sad he looks now!

        e didnt c kept told Maud t she said,

        take a dle! take anytake a coal from t you be quicker?—Dont say I sent you, mind!

        you believe s?—tripping dos of stairs, ed coal in a pair of fire-tongs, just so a man mig? ell, I    no. Gentleman saepping across to    I carried, and laughed.

        I said, All rig me do for you to ligte from. Look glad, sc make a business of it, if you .

        move    raised o her window.

        a good girl she is, he said.

        Soo good for you, t I do know.

        only as a gentleman so a servant; and ly,

        how do we do, Sue?

        Pretty well, I answered.

        You think she loves me?

        I do. Oh, yes.

        a silver case and lifted free a cigarette. But s told you so?

        S o.

        o trust you?

        I t. She has nobody else.

        te, t in a sigaihe cold air blue. he said, Shes ours.

        epped back a little ured    ed, let to tooped to    it.    else? old    t ened, smiling, all time fumbling ongs over tc up and rising, and plag my ongs and pressing tight.

        tly. ter. But you kno do? atctle jeing and turn o cas like t on, in an ordinary voice. Mr ay o t door of to see    fall and scorcs . . .

        I made sey, and epped out to bend    tc,    murmur:

        ts on you, at Lant Street. Mrs Sucksby o kiss you, in her behalf.

        kiss, t te into ted up e o brus back behind his ear.

        From ep, I saudying    quite sure o do most: laug s out. But

        Gentlema . ed o tretc Maud migter from the shadows of her room.

        Sood and cte, every m    ifter t. Sand at to t circle of crimson in     upon t I sa gro passed.

        Noced for to break.

        I    it migake t t    too good at ing, and too smoottle jump out of o be o Gentleman; and tle    of o be closer to    t o glide in. e o go bust.

        e needed o gro I could , ttle s—suc a kileman Mr Rivers    s like Mr Rivers mig t for ttle c, to open up , sook ourned cold again, t got to Marc    April. By May, Mr Lillys pictures ed, aleman    still s of fear t a en her off.

        I greful, ing. Gentleman greful. e all gre fidgeting for    a trot, and art, t

        art; and ime fentleman to call on ening for ep—t. t nigiff and open-eyed, or turn and murmur in her sleep.

        All, I t, for love! I . I t about    , in t of all t she guessed liked her.

        I t of leman liked me.

        I t per to take ell o another.

        t s tty rum, in lig er.

        But somet. t last. t bust, and all    paid off.

        S him kiss her.

        Not on    someter.

        I kno.

        It    day of April. too ime of year. t in a sky of grey, and everyone said thunder.

        S and a cloak above : so ake a. Sting at ing of tleman o e spoiled , and t upon her face.

        t to touc er in it still, and all t rank. t Gentleman said les. tig, furry buds.

        I sat beside turned punt: Gentleman    to ter of t    of cakes. t leman looked on, smiling, and sometimes putting his hand on

        hers.

        Sed, and t sun    loo be streaked . I slept and dreamt of Lant Street—I dreamt of Mr Ibbs at ing. t arted from t, not knoleman were nowo be seen.

        tool, and terrible painting. ts. I    over and picked up t it leman, after all, to aken o t me to e up, sing,    I could not imagi s almost afraid for    almost like a real maid, worried for ress.

        And ttle hem.

        t gone far—only just along t bent about t    look round. t ogeto    last.    time,    me to over    t to ,    turned     her hair, and whispered.

        tood ced one of ; and then he kissed her naked palm.

        And by t, I kneo    rose even ops of ogs, te of high.

        treacle. My go to gaze as I did. I could not look aillness of t ill bunc ed skirt—it seemed to ongue among tcly kissed her again.

        I so see . I . Instead, I imagi of e fingers,     m. I    and in . All for    t and —so slig s break. I t    swallow her up, or bruise her.

        I turned a t of too urned, and stole softly back to er a mie after t I s, and tleman    ttoned up and . hen he saw me he gave me a look. he said,

        Sue! e didnt like to    t is all gone, and ress?

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        door to us. As    to fall, i, dark, staining drops.

        Just in time! said Gentleman softly, gazing at Maud aing her draw her hand from him.

        It     ill, for I sao roke her fingers over her palm.
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