For tice. In trade for taircase ed a small paradise. itasy rees, brus of ting primitive garden, ed several ses from triarcrious life errupted. tlessness or boredom made ed . But ryside to breat, or visit a peasants daug, or lie f into ted reetops, into ting er a day or ttack ly, tenderly coax a mouted beard. Beside Ericatues ao t times er. onis. Everytless, stubborn, boyis o flo greion, a small surging ainly no less heology.
Pensively ;Im learning a great deal from you, Goldmund. Im beginning to uand is. Formerly it seemed to me t, pared to t could not be taken altoget someture of mind and matter, siion of ternal to ter pulls o transitory, rive aoo elevate meaning. I did pretend, out of , to in eem, but actually I and looked do. Only no t t even t o is my ay on it. But I see t you, on te road, on t of being just as deeply and express it in a muc to do."
"Noand," Goldmund said, "t I t ceive of ts images?"
"I ood it. Our tant process of verting to abstras, a looking atempt to struct a purely spiritual stant, t mortal to your , and in tality s look ao it, and by your sacrifice to it raise it to t, a parable of eternity. e try to e closer to God by pulling to ion and re-creating it. Bot, but art is more i."
"I dont kno in overing life, iing despair, you to succeed better. I opped envying you for your learning, dear friend, but I do envy your calm, your detac, your peace."
"You s envy me, Goldmund. t you imagine. O not anyt lives antly and never leaves us. t must be ruggles as Abbot, my struggles in t you dont. You only see t I am less subjeoods take t for peace. But my life is struggle; it is struggle and sacrifice like every det life; like yours, too."
"Lets not quarrel about it, Narcissus. You dont see all my struggles eit knoo uand t it aken a in its place. turn to a bare all t I did not ac even see, and inside Ill feel as robbed ay as t;
"t may be so," said Narcissus. "and tely in suc tion all men of good art out again, and eacime to be made ane;
A feer Goldmunds big s place. An old experience repeated itself: , judged, praised; and and ood empty ao table for a festive meal at fiserest and joy of Narcissus, who praised him and honored his work.
A near for to ter and in . For tar Goldmuo make a statue of to eternalize in table figures of iful fearful Lydia, ts daugtle importao seemed suitable to ants project. If Eric partner alone ill close to . itar and . Often Goldmu for several days, and Ericified t, atue of Lydia, to roam again.
roubled. Siion of less and dissatisfied. No of Master Niklaus and led master in , but unfree and unyoung. Retly a small adventure : on one of girl named Franziska, o cs of sedu ened gladly to ting, lauged at s time , to a young fotten. Franziska because of a feure gray rat rangely similar to Master Niklaus. itious and tame; iimal. norustfully for t st. And after and caroused, sometibly back. ting for responsible for tar ant Eri: after ted to go on a trip and try good to live in a cloister for so long, mig not for elligently ood an artists all t—g, tenderness, games, love, pleasure t—did not flouris one le gray and serious tle aminated; it into of a trip soled to o be free sooner. And as Lydias figure gradually came torict folds of ook algic falling in love iful s time, love, travels, ly te image, felt it oender memories. It o form ifully arcoo, are at tion and loving respect w.
finiso t. Narcissus said: "t is a beautiful measures up to it. I must fess to you t I you on several occasions during t mont you less and disturbed, and imes t atue. I am ;
"Yes," Goldmund said, "tatue turned out rat o me, Narcissus. In order to make tatue, I needed my entire youts is t ake a good long vacation, I dont kno o me. you uand t? ell, yes. You kno, and Ive aken any payment for my work ;
"I often offered it to you," interrupted Narcissus.
"Yes, and no it. Ill into t be sad. It is not t I dont like it be better off anyake. ill you fulfill my wis;
t it noldmund fit and boots, and as summer dre ouc mig e o be slige touco te. Alt deeply sad about times smiled a little about Goldmunds being in love, about being able to tear atue.
But one day Goldmund surprised o take . In o Narcissus to say goodbye. ime ago. Noaking came o boted feel in .
"ill I ever see you again?" asked Narcissus.
"Oty nag does not break my neck, you ainly see me again. Besides, me, t be anyoo call you Narcissus and cause you to fear. Yes, and dont fet to keep an eye on Erio ooucatue! S remain standing in my room, as I to let t of your ;
"Are you looking foro t;
Goldmund blinked.
"ell, I o it; ts quite true. But no Im about to ride off, it feels less amusing t t me, but I dont like going a please me. It is like an illness; young . Master Niklaus oo. ell, lets not c about useless stuff! Bless me, dear friend; I to leave."
he rode off.
In s, Narcissus ly ed about range and lovable person ormy and insatiable, a gro terfly, it nes, of suco fear for , deep do pleased tubborn e, t again to slers.
Every day ts ts retur oime or anoto itude and and self-reproac pertle o be ot? said muc it, per enougell if not o keep him?
But only been enrily good t s to er life, ly office, ructed t edifice—all ten been so its foundations by . Certainly, seen from t of vieer, from t of viey, ter, rigeadier, more orderly, more exemplary. It rict service, an unending sacrifice, a stantly reneriving for clarity and justice. It er tist, vagrant, and seducer of seen from above, ion of teness from dirt and blood, of o pation aer ted to live a regulated life, ies indicated by prayer bells? ed to study Aristotle and Saint to kinguiso flee t created incts, y for sin, lust, and despair? tions around s circled pero lead a Goldmund-life, more ceous, more noble pero abandon oo tream of reality, to it sins and accept tter sequences ratside t a lonely -garden, strolling sinlessly among ones sered flos and along torn so suffer sun and rain, o play h suffering.
At any rate, Goldmund a mained for o t dept and blood, being small and on, killing t darkness extinguis and tive forside to ic life, a for ill-life images, radiant o being under Goldmunds stai faces glo, t plants and flole, proud, or sacred gestures, si an abundance of ligs of God d in t of tist and seducer.
It o seem superior to Goldmund in tions, to oppose ellectual order to every small gesture of one of Goldmunds figures, every eye, every mout not more real, alive, and irreplaceable t tist, and misery, fasriving for innumerable people, porary and future, figures to anguisless people urn for solation, firmation, and strength?
Smiling and sad, Narcissus remembered all times siaugefully ed, alting Narcissuss superiority and guidance. And tly, empest and suffering of rus, no explanations, no autied life. er discipline, ics!
tions around urned. Just as ervened roug brutally, in Goldmunds youturn, o doubt and self-examination. been given baes over.
t ime for t. eeks passed. tnut tree its blossoms; tgreen beeed dark, firm, and orks long since ce toaugo fly. tayed aant o on Plato, an excellent grammarian, and one or tle t souls. But again noh longing.
Often to to ence tant Eriued tar and eagerly aed ers return. Sometimes t unlocked Goldmunds room, ed tayed old ory. But everyt t. Perrayed a , truer t faitaken il finally, perer many years in oucatue of a girl and captured in enderness, admiration, and longing of tory, too, in tern pulpit in tory. It ory of a inctive being, of a s ers ra emerged from them.
Narcissus struggled. ered betray ed in no service. But ion of , o God and to taco his friend.
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