t of man is vitally depe on iion. It is t important product of ive brain. Its ultimate purpose is te mastery of mind over terial ure to    task of tor ood and unre ion in t exceptionally privileged class    ruggle against pitiless elements.

        Speaking for myself, I e enjoyment, so muany years my life tle s of tinuous rapture. I am credited     of labor, for I ed to it almost all of my erpreted to be a definite performan a specified time acc tid rule, t of idlers. Every effort under pulsion demands a sacrifice of life-energy. I never paid sucrary, I s.

        In attempting to give a ected and fait of my activities in ticles, I must dly, on tances as al iermining my career.

        Our first endeavors are purely instinctive, promptings of an imagination vivid and undisciplined. As s itself aid designing. But t immediately productive, are of test moment and may sinies. Indeed, I feel no ood and cultivated instead of suppressing tantial value to my bequest to t not until I tained man I or.

        to a number of causes. In t place I ed to araordinary degree—one of tality ion o explain. ure deat my parents dissolate.

        e oo us by a dear friend. It    animal of Arabian breed, possessed of almost elligence, and ted by tances. My fater nigo perform an urgent duty and ed by ened and ran aly to t arrived ed, but after tely dasurning to t, and before ty    by my fated, not realizing t ragic se and alty-six years     none of its force. tion of tais made every effort of mine seem dull in parison.

        Anyt able merely caused my parents to feel ttle fiden myself. But I upid boy, if I am to judge from an i    remembrance. One day treet    of tlemen—a izen—paused to give a silver piece to eae opt and anded, "Look in my eyes." I met stretco receive to my dismay,    muotoo smart."

        to tell a funny story about me. I s eetruding like tusks of an elep e as unattractive relatives. It    er examinily, I ansfully, pointing to one of t as ugly as ther."

        tended from my very birt stantly oppressed me. I loo be an engineer but my fat Napoleon and, in on i a promi institution, ary education but, singularly enouger embraced tion e man, a veritable natural p and er and o be as eloquent as ta-Clara. ly recited at lengten remarked playfully t if some of t ore tyle of ing erse and    and satire. teristic. Just to illustrate, I may mention one or tances.

        Among to do ood nearby a very unfortable, cautioned    strike at    at end to ."

        On anotaking out for a drive a friend    to rub on t saying, "Pull in your coat, you are ruining my tire."

        of talking to en carry on an animated versation and indulge in ed argument, e of ener mig several people he room.

        Alt tray motever iiveness I possess, training     prised all sorts of exercises—as, guessing one anots, disc ts of some form or expressioing loences or perf mental calculations. teto develop tical sense, and edly very beneficial.

        My mot families in try and a line of iors. Boted numerous implements for ural and otruly great itude,    trying experience. een a viruleilery. o admi sacraments to t aloo tance of a neigri by t ting to tom of try and wurned ian burial.

        My motor of t order and    been so remote from modern life and its multifold opportunities. Sed and structed all kinds of tools and devices and    designs from ted ts and separated tigably, from break of day till late at nig of t of    sixty, ill nimble enougo tie ts in an eyelash.

        till more important reason for my late ao ten apanied by strong flas, s and interfered    and a. tures of to me t it designated    itself vividly to my vision and sometimes I e uo distinguis I saangible or not. t disfort and ay. None of tudents of psyced could ever explain satisfactorily to    my brotrouble. ted is t t of a reflex a from tina under great excitation. tainly    ions sucs I o give an idea of my distress, suppose t I nessed a funeral or some sucacle. tably, in tillness of nigure of t itself before my eyes and persist despite all my efforts to banis. Sometimes it    in space t. If my explanation is correct, it so proje a s t one ceives and make it visible. Suize all ions. I am vi time to e; I may add t I ed muc to tion of the problem.

        to free myself of tormenting appearances, I tried to trate my mind on someten obtain temporary relief; but in order to get it I o jure tinuously ne    long before I found t I ed all of t my and; my "reel" , as it le of ts in my e surroundings. As I performed tal operations for time, in order to c all its force. tinctively eo make excursions beyond ts of t first very blurred and indistinct, and    ao trate my attention upon t by and by I succeeded in fixing trengtiness and finally assumed teness of real t my best fort tained if I simply    on in my vision fartting neime, and so I began to travel—of course, in my mind. Every nigimes during tart on my journeys—see neies and tries—live t people and make friendsances and,    is a fact t t as dear to me as tual life and not a bit less intense in tations.

        tantly until I    seventeen urned seriously to iion. to my delig I could visualize est facility. I needed no models, dras. I could picture to evolve erializing iive cepts and ideas, o tal and is in my opinion ever so mucious and effit.

        t one structs a device to carry into practise a crude idea ails as of tus. As rug, ration diminis of t underlying principle. Results may be obtained but al ty. My met. I do not ruso actual art at once building it up in my imagination. I cruake improvements and operate t is absolutely immaterial to me    or test it in my se if it is out of balaever, ts are to rapidly develop and perfect a ception    toubody in tion every possible improvement I    t anyo crete form t of my brain. Invariably my device    it s es out exactly as I pla. In ty years t been a single exception.    be otrical and mecive is. t t ot be matically treated and ts calculated or ts determined beforeical and practical data. t into practise of a crude idea as is being generally done is, I    a e of energy, money and time.

        My early affli ion. t mental exertion developed my poion and enabled me to discover a trut importance. I ed t tual vision of ses under peculiar and generally very exceptional ditions and I e ter a o be almost automatid I gained great facility in eg cause and effect. Soon I became ao my surprise, t every t I ceived ed by aernal impression. Not only t all my as ed in a similar ime it became perfectly evident to me t I omaton endo, responding to timuli of ting accly. tical result of t of telautomatics    manner. Its latent possibilities omata and believe t mec as if possessed of reason, to a limited degree, and e a revolution in many ercial and industrial departments.

        I    t I never rol over t to    experiend inexplicable. tressing situation, or ances I ongues of living flame. tensity, instead of diminisime and seemingly attained a maximum y-five years old.

        Frencurer sent me an invitation to a sing expedition ory and ting effee. On my return to ty t nig a positive sensation t my brain    fire. I sa and I past t applying cold pressions to my tortured    it took more tation eo me my answer was an empiO!

        till maime to time, as rikes me, but ting, being of relatively small iy. , a background of very dark and uniform blue, not u starless niged illating flakes of green, arranged in several layers and advang too t, a beautiful pattern of tems of parallel and closely spaced lines, at rigo one anots of colors ing. Immediately ter ter and ts of t ten seds vaniso t, leaving be and i grey rying to mould t is curious t I ot project a form into til time, before falling asleep, images of persons or objects flit before my vie to lose sciousness. If t and refuse to e，it means a sleepless night.

        to ent imagination played a part in my early life I may illustrate by anot se desire to support myself in trong ime. It ment was keen wer I undeceived myself.

        During t period I tracted many strange likes, dislikes and s, some of o external impressions    t ots, as bracelets, pleased me more or less acc to design. t of a pearl    give me a fit but I ed ter of crystals or objects    touc, per t of a revolver. I    a fever by looking at a peac caused me t disfort. Even no insensible to some of tting impulses. tle squares of paper in a disaste in my mouted teps in my ed tents of soup plates, coffee cups and pieces of food—oted acts or operations I performed o be divisible by t I felt impelled to do it all ain, even if it took hours.

        Up to t years, my cer ing. I rengto form a firm resolve. My feelings came in ed unceasingly betremes. My s of pain in life aious belief and lived in stant dread of t of evil, of gs and ogres and oters of t oremendous cered tence.

        Of all t. My fatried to satisfy my passion for reading.    permit it and e .    I .     me to spoil my eyes. But I obtaiallo ticks into tin forms, and every ill daarted on ask.

        On one occasion I came across a novel entitled Abafi (translation of a    poo practise self-trol. At first my resolutions faded like sno in a little    of doing as I willed.

        In time tal exercise became sed nature. At tset my    gradually desire and o be identical. After years of suce a mastery over myself t I toyed    destru to some est men. At a certain age I tracted a mania fambling s. to sit doo a game of cards essence of pleasure. My fat excuse te of time and money in    my po op    o give up t o empt but my mot. Sood ter of men and kne one''s salvation could only be broug ts. Oernoon, I remember, ter it    you    over it." S. I quered my passio it    been a imes as strong. I not only vanquis tore it from my    so as not to leave even a trace of desire. Ever siime I    to any form of gambling as to pig teeth.

        During anotening to ruin my ed itself and I not only stopt but destroyed all ination. Long ago I suffered from    trouble until I discovered t it o t cup of coffee I ed every m. I disti o    an easy task. In ts and passions and    only preserved my life but derived an immense amount of satisfa from    men ion and sacrifice.

        After finisudies at tecitute and Uy I e nervous breakdown and wed I observed many prange and unbelievable.
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