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I sarted to roll up her window.
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"No. I seen a soul." S; is your name?"
I ated and t it best to end tter. "My name is Billy Speck."
"Youd better go urn up."
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t m or any ot. I read every tense moment, every crad creak, every ed my grief and gave me rying to drating me drift aoo, but I felt any otry ted to remember properly. I ed t stopping akio tion. I kept t I sa and fell to be merely tcer play over stone, I came upon tucked beurned out to be a fa in a window of sunsernally. And never here.
retcory. I spent ay trying tet rying to remember. t to talk about I surprised ter an afternoon of fiso tion not intended for my ears.
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tole furtive gla me, not kn of fiso sending t t on me. But s survived, but I preferred to t so t to mind tense colors of her eyes, and a brief smile crossed my face.
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I did not care. A certain fearlessness filled me, and I ate to run into too son of cigarettes for Lucs for Cole unnecessary t and batteries, a dra, I fiddled asks¡ª atop a around turtle sing to a necklace. I up aloo turbed, as , and placed tortoises , but only because life niger finally made me realize t Speck ting.
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trapped at trolled past ts and us. t ma on tually settled dotled er, u man took out a book and read somet to t off berees to relieve ime, for t only to finis to kiss terlude erapped on ted a det spell before running to t ted.
ty er bottles littered te. tuaries by Louise Bogan. I leafed topped at t more t.
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" is it, Aniday?" Chavisory asked.
"I am trying to remember."
to turo see if my rades o discover Lucep by giep, s flooded an urgency to find o uand ell e versations of my mind ill to go, found t o vince moved in my . And ever it too late, I resolved to begin again.
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