Ney; a neially untoud lig period in Goldmunds life y offered itself in all its arts; t games and images. On tsmansions and experiences. iters t, and at ters as to er, colors, varnish, and gold leaf.
Goldmund one of tists means of expression. Quite a number of people are able to feel ty of tly, and to carry to exteriorize to create t of oto unicate t suffer from to ricks and practices of t, and o play te er o dan Sundays in t easily; it came by itself. ies and disappois, spoiled a fe imes. But ed till, ter en dissatisfied ;Fortunately youre not my apprentiy assistant, Goldmund. Fortunately youve youll go back t kno youre a er and not a burgisan migo temptation to ask t of you, ter demands of all erday you slept yard o polis;
ter justifying a reliable, ask fasated like difficult but demaime and appliany of tient parts of craftsmansen pletely unbearable to sometimes made o make ance groer, . ie noin syntax and all ts iigably, alt ttom of , te unimportant to t. Love eeled ant courtseem and reition. In to slave for ive glance from teagely enoug learned Narcissus ude for learning, ead of learning, monkue, poincts ers: sex, ers madonna and discovered tist aken a neled doem from?
At first o defi. ly admired Master Niklaus, but in no o trasts in ters nature. t least t among t ter an example.
Beside tist beautiful mouto transform deep experiend intuition into tangible forms, ter Niklaus: a someern and fearful fat, sliger and an ugly servant in ly resisted Goldmunds stro impulses, o a calm, moderate, orderly, respectable life.
Alted er, altted o question ot o judge of oter a year to t detail all t o be kno Niklaus. ter meant muco ed stay ay, trated ters nature and of Niklaus alloior assistant to live in out and equally rarely invited guests to iful daugouc ried to berict, premature abstinence of tincts ill at play, t ter could straransform and rejuveravel for a feratle toing up a carved pulpit, Niklaus inely visited a w less and ill-erwards.
As time on, somety tied Goldmund to ters ers beautiful daugtracted ly. to see o t determine of ure. overlook t t ter never again invited ried to make aing . Lisbet precious, sered young girl; o ed to marry o e from a good family, be a member of one of the higher guilds and probably have money and a house besides.
Lisbety, so different from t of t racted Goldmunds eyes t first day. t decipra violently attracted also made ated calm and innoce, y cesy and ease lay a reason move annoyed and provoked ly familiar to to create a statue of t an a a young virgin. en dreamed of seeing iful, immobile face distorted iasy or pain, of seeing it unfold and yield its secret.
t did not altogeto o capture and re-create artistically, but again and again it dre o memories, after ion s of love, during o deat ler. traits and colors o an impersonal moter Niklauss madonnas poion t seemed unsurpassable to Goldmund, one day, e t, , most t transformation and gro, eac, eac it and fass traits. to be able to make visible some day to represent any specific tself, times ; often it appeared in t o express, except t ed it to simate relationsasy to pain ah.
Goldmund learned a great deal in tsman; occasionally, beside ry modeling successful , seductive figure of little Julie, Lydias sister. ter praised t did not fulfill Goldmunds ial; oo und o bee its godfatarted atue of Narcissus, in raying tle Joed to include to execute and on ants e some time, leaving touco ter.
Goldmund tatue of Narcissus. ime off track, and distracted and grumpy over at . Joures came to meet of ter and greater purity, ion and y. During t of time. Again t, ligal feeling in o o be guided by anding ting an image of s o step out of ting transitions of life, to express the pure image of his being.
times felt rue art came about. ters unfettable madonna ed in ter again and again on many a Sunday. tatues airs in ters foyer o being in t, sacred manner. And one day t ot e suc, sucial images, untainted by y. But it t ed: pretty, delig mastery, t lovers, t of ly, but not sacred, not true images of t only by Niklaus and oters—, in spite of tsmans playto t in , in ist put sucty t of delig of ambition and dissipation.
time, ist in order to make little angel figures and similar frivolities, no matter iful. Perisans, tisfied souls mig not o and craftsmansorms. broug, pleasantness, only small joys. y croask for ter er Niklaus accept all tants? en for o tors and prelates al from icks in to be a famous artist flooded ed to pile up money, not for any great ac or pleasure but for er, iful girl could not e to kno as well in a .
irred deeply in Goldmund in tions; ttled, tors. At times craft and master o en came close to running aer angrily regretted aken on t, unreliable felloried ieo tmost. t Goldmunds life, about o money and o make ic; aken a gypsy inter. Nor escaped eyes t looked at er Lisbeto be patient, it out of a sense of duty or out of fear, but because of t. Joatue, quite admit to er co of t, ser tiful, yet clumsy dra time. tenaciously, unerringly, Goldmund fasatue of ter did not doubt t it erruptions, t it one of ants o make, a eve masters did not often aplise of ter disliked in fits e— t. John.
During t t of t grad boyis iful, strong man, muctle popular ly cer years. orld and y, gentle, pious, er student o o resist a o test . In spite sense of beauty, of tle beauty ed, y alone, but also a stantly vigilant curiosity. As soon as o a ed iful to ely. Experieaug every iful and able t joy, t a mousy creature ion, t ted ernal, mly s tenderness, t ead o unlock t respect, all y ure. But not every eful too and prettiest; some ied ly after ten niged after t time and fotten.
Love aasy o ruly gave life its value. Ambition o distinguisempt for t sacrifice for t not. omen, t on , and accesses of melanc gre of t desire ransitory, fleeting experies brief, longing flame, its rapid extin—to o tain to o t all transitory o love. tasy, at tension, is certain t it must vanis breat loneliness and abandoo melan t it to t side of life. Deatasy ernally sernally sy. t became a parable and a sacred symbol to him.
Not o o desire and to deat peed by ood terpart, and tatue of St. Jo visible. o t of tears; reac bee like him.
Secretly Goldmund also sensed ist meant to ense love of art could also occasionally turn to red. s but ions, make many different distins: art migart in utter sensuality ao total abstra; t mige in pure cept and end in bleeding fles t ruly sublime, not just a good jugglers trick; t ernal secret, like ters madonna; every obviously genuine ind pure spirituality. One day atue, if he succeeded in making her.
In art, in being an artist, Goldmund say of reg tradis, or at least of expressi in ure. But art just a gift. It could not be cost a great deal; it demanded sacrifices. For over t essential o desire and love: ing in a limitless —all t judge e, and overly indepe embittered er nor ure nor need demanded itself.
Art, sucual goddess in appearance, required so may tools, and patience. o toxication of to be made again and agaih.
Part of tures, s ituted a small revenge against tary order of life. All rengture steamed out of tta a dark side street, on o see a girl or on tick, tning so pass from defeo attack, to press ting eo o land a fist ule ily—all tasted good to Goldmund and cured , too.
All ty to do, and it all made sense as long as . Jo took a long time. t delicate sient tration. atue in a small s iculously , gently brus sa from s ood in front of atue for a long time, an experience remain unique. A man on ted, a er t c feel sus in t: a deep reverence, a great earness, and at time a secret fear of t he days.
years, clad in tiful, favorite disciple, stand listening ed fad an expression of stillness, devotion, and revere unknoo tiful, pious, spiritualized face, to t seemed to be floating, to t despair o traits mig its pitc suffered no discordant note.
Goldmund stood and plated emplation began as a meditation in front of t to it ended in a tempest of sorroiful disciple o part omorro seemed to it to say fareoday not only to . Jo also to ter, to ty, to art. to do any more; no images filled yet accessible to be accessible for a long time. So polistle angel figures nos?
ore o ters ood at til Niklaus noticed to him.
" is it, Goldmund?"
"My statue is finisake a look at it before you go up to eat."
"Gladly. Ill e rig;
toget. Niklaus seen t Goldmund undisturbed at attention. iful and ligern eyes groy.
"It is good," ter said. "It is very good. It is your assistants piece, Goldmund. No t ter for it; you deserve it."
Goldmund did not value t ion ters , and he was glad.
. Jo;ty and lig is grave, but filled t t lig."
Goldmund smiled.
"You kno I did not portray myself in t my dearest friend. It is ligo ture, not I. It really I ue; into my soul."
"t may be so," said Niklaus. "It is a secret o being. I am not particularly I must say: I fall far be in craft and care, but in trut suc be repeated. It is a secret."
"Yes," Goldmund said. " it, I t: you t make t again. A Ill soon go back to ;
Astonis ern again.
"ell speak about t. For you, to run a take t noon youll be my guest."
At noon Goldmund appeared and o be io ters table. As airs to t atues, ime, t first time o tiful quiet rooms .
Lisbetoo, aining tue.
time sit in silence alked. Boto oasts. Goldmunds eyes y to study carefully tiful girl inguisly ptuous face, and ceal reated eously, but disappoi s blused. Again ly to make tiful immobile face speak, to force it to surres secret.
After tatues in ternoon rolled ty, an aimless idler. ly er, beyond all expectation. not make ive taste?
ed a to ter er and seemed uer catue delig iful t. Jo ery, and superior in craft, in free, gravity-less floating. No only an artist sees, soft delicate movements in ties in tion of tive utilization of ties o to ty aies of ely. In order to be able to create a only to carry images in ones soul; one also o rained, practiced eyes and er all o plaes entire life at t, at to be able oo make sometiful, somet only been experienced and envisioned and received in love, but also executed to t detail e mastery? It ant question.
Late at niguro ty on a tired avern still stood open. took bread and o t, not at peace ions, full of doubts.
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