I made up by day for t at niger a bat ired. I darkened my bedroom and as I undressed I came on t; but I fot t Maria and    t    till I    up in t I remembered t t I o find a dress s. I got myself ready in very good    out ter to have dinner.

        It    masked ball I o participate in. In earlier days, it is true, I tended sucivities and even sometimes fouaining, but I ator merely. As for talked and rejoiced over t ruck me as id nooo to find t painful suspense. As I o take, I decided not to go till late. too, hermine had seled me.

        I e been to teel , my former refuge,    out t bac did not suit to lead sio it before I    fate and parting imposed on me just noations and sation in my lifes pilgrimage caug gleam of pain ay t es from t; and so too tle tavern, trons I ely been numbered and e of a bottle of cely ened me enougo spend one more nigo endure life for one more day. I asted er stimulus sier poison. itered t el. ted me and so,    pany of ués. A roast c before me. t glass. te ables and te and drank t feeling of s, t s and in of all t    been parted from, and from o part imentality.    te objects.    even love    sacred object, orcar, but is ever o exc as soon as er model. ty. renuous—a splendid type, and in t     a modern man, nor an old-fasime altoget my    my elboion to sealities. I o find a trace of anytill remaining in my burned-out . So I let my memories of tavern and my attac to t and    ty in fareleness in to o me, and so    glass and taste of timacy    and dreaming drinkers, timentality, ligoucill forbidden trange and    no Steppeno tear my seo pieces. I sat t ill s afterglow.

        A street seller came in and I bouged uts. An old    a bund preseo t    till I    to pay my bill a in vain for t of t I usually    I realized once more t I he Masked Ball. And hermine!

        It ill early enoug vince myself to go t too—as I    ely y o eramosphe world of pleasure and dang.

        As I sauntered along I passed by a ema s dazzling ligers. I    on a feeps, turned again and    in. till eleven I could sit quietly and fortably in t I stumbled tains into t aament. t are nominally not ss are lavis midday even sc to see teacory of Moses and tes i, ribulations of t. I sas of alt man, a splendidly trical Moses,    at taff and tride of a otan. I sa ted to give free passage, a deep road betains of er (tion classes ducted by to see t end as to    and ruck people pass to ts of Po sigians stop and start on tured ceously on, I saainous ers close over trappings and over all s and all ,    for tly sung. I sa of storm and tning imparted ten as to    up t t of tain and gave to someerous celebrations. I found it se and incredible to be looking on at all to be seeing t, s s    daed for money before a grateful public t sat quietly eating t    from tle picture, indeed, picked up by cure in to suc er for t aloians, to    and beiead of tence of dying by inc oday. Yes indeed!

        My secret repressions and unfessed frigrary, to unfortable proportions and I o so to enter. It e, and time in full s once before I aken off my t up, sed familiarly. Girls summoned me to to none of it, but fougo t my cloakroom ticket I put it in my pocket    care, refleg t I mig before very long whe uproar.

        Every part of t building o tivities. t as airs o overfloer and tumult. Oppressed in    I stole tra to t band, from tly ligo to tairs, to bars, buffets and cly ings by test artists. All tists, journalists, professors, business men, and of course every ad of pleasure in toras sat Pablo, blo a greeting. Puser anotairs airs t aged as ists and ter a ime after time to reac eito meet t. By midnig danced I o t cter strangers and ordered some o t joining in sucivals    for an old man like me. I drank my glass of    tcesquely masked figures drifting by and silently deed to sit on my knee et me to dance. "Old Gro; one called after me; and s. I decided to raise my spirits    even t against me and I could scarcely s over me t teppenanding beo. Noto be sure, I    iions, but to be merry in; and all ter and t on every side, seemed to me forced and stupid.

        t , at about one oclock, in anger and disillusio I steered a course for to put on my coat again and go. It o my    I could not do oto till kept a careful lookout in case I mig see one of my friends, but in vain. Noood at ter. Already ttendant ely extending    in my coat pocket—t if even ten enoug over my tasteless , figo go a    me.

        "Lost your number?" came in a s my elbo;ake mine," and    out to me    more ado. ook it and tur over in my fitle felloidly disappeared.

        eboard ter for a number, no number o be seen. Iiny tendant to    and    to t ligo read it. ttle crazy letters t were scarcely legible was scrawled:

        tONIG tER

        FOR MADMEN ONLY

        PRICE OF ADMIttANIND.

        NOt FOR EVERYBODY.hERMINE IS IN hELL.

        As a marioe    o neer a brief paralysis of deats lively part, so did I at ticity and eagerness of youto tumult from reated in tlessness and o get to    before my pateed air disgusted me, and t undone me. No I nimbly oepped to ed me on, and so no less did tous music, toxication of colors, toer, to my arms: "Dance ; "t," said I. "Im bound for    Ill gladly take a kiss ; t mine and    igime ill joined. Past Pablo rument. tracted radiance. But before y steps tfully I let go of Maria.

        "Id o ; I said, intoxicated ;e ep or tiful arm. Let me    a moment longer! But, you see, ;

        "I t so. Fare you." S me—left me indeed. Yes, it umn, it e, t .

        On I    tairs to cs, and tra of devils    ted a pretty young fello a mask and in evening dress o t ty couples    ill in masks and smiled at me, but none    me. At t pause, t I, s no one came.

        I    over to to a er of taking a seat    I sa t tled on it from t. O flas was h.

        "; I stammered.

        S;;

        It le paint. tyliso telligent face, t and te cuffs made rave a curious elegao    in te silk socks.

        "Is tume, o make me fall in love ;

        "So far," s;I ented myself urning t nourn , lets ;

        So o train s. And    o give    trouble I    dander advances, and    aral in ures encircled me    so mucouco self kept    s e. For salked to me about    c ty for love, in its first yout only bot all and everytual, and endoransformation sucer years es again only to a co poets, and to t s up t of a young man, smoking cigarettes and talking ed ease t often tle mockery in it; a    ransformed, as it reaco a .

        I kneely neion of o me t nigly and inspicuously s t I longed for around me, and    poison to drink!

        e sat and talked and drank crolled t us. e    on voyages of exploration to discover couples o spy upon. Sed out o ttack to be employed ook t for a urns and botried to    it    caugoget ale. Everyt beauty but looking tragid un. to drink cogetold me after s of    as a man but as a , ted everyed cros st. I toyed    after fruit. Serpents looked at me from green and leafy sus blossoms luxuriated over black bogs. Enced birds sang allurement from trees. Yet all o one longed-foal, t kno;One    kno before." t;Old Gro; a fe    da    ceasing for two    I hrong.

        An experience fell to my lot t of t I y years, t is knoo every flapper and student—toxication of a general festivity, terious merging of ty in tiion of joy. I en    spoken of. It o every servant girl. I en observed told me of it and I reated it imes in my life I ure oxicated and released from t smile, t ion, of turned by a o in drunken recruits and sailors, and also i artists in tival; and not less in young soldiers going to    days I    and loved and mocked and eoxication of playing in tra, or atic, o tor, t imes occurred to me t suco quite young persons or among toms permitted no marked differences bet today, on t, I myself, teppen ale. I myself breat intoxication of a on dream and of musid ren listened , or dismal superiority, to its panegyri tter of some student. I y oxication of tivity like salt in er. I danced , but it    only t beloo me. All to t faces floated past me like fantastie, and I to t in one anotoo. I ers to me. theirs mine.

        A , itle "Yearning,"    t er. Once    . e    and intoxicated    and everyone     stop and e young girls, er prime, and ured—laug. And ion , ime rument , so tune of "Yearning." I and my partner kissed our o    I, meano me    least, I, too, , released from myself, a brother of Pablos, a child.

        I    time, and I dont knooxication of ed. I did not observe eit ter tal fire burs     people . t and many of ts out. tairs ed and in tra after anotopped playing and gone a    till raged in a cresdo. Since I could not dang enters in t last I lost sigirely—and not only sig t. ts left. I    in ts and tones and sigirred me. I ed and kindled by strange eyes, encircled by strange faces, borne ime to though by a wave.

        And to my senses for a moment, among t    it up in one of t to overfloill sounded—of a sudden I sate ed    t I    seen before. e self in flused faces, cruste stood t e face beume    a crease and not a    of place. ed cuffs oucoickled my cs as no one elses    nigo tenderness and pelling to s by ts. I bent doo kiss s smile riump and long familiar. Of a sudden I reized t ely. For a moment o o miill clasped ed couples round us clapped, stamped, cried out and urged ted orcra to play "Yearning" ain. And no it    beains. It o e. Blindly, s of laugely into to t t began to flood t moved in time to touc t o do to make me in love    so me. All t, all t I ed, all ured eyes ed togethe one whom I held in my arms.

        On and on    tial daime after time t truments fall. t got up from t fiddle sime tence of t intoxicated dancers and played once more. ter and more    last, as ood, still e eager dao our sides like trings and tist, blinking sleepily, put e as case. Doors opetendants appeared er turned off t. t ago    on coats and cloaks and turned up t smiling. Slo and a faint and indescribably tender s to , and ttle trembling line of so me to sum up all tion of her body like a smile.

        e stood looking at one anot in t in titter of laugorcars starting up. And someerminable distand , I , araordinarily clear and merry peal of laug it ra    cold and inexorable.    tell.

        e stood and looked at one anot I came to my sober self. I felt a fearful     and limp my cloted cuffs. But all at o seemed to e from my oy fell ay of my sensuous love of e anottle soul looked at me.

        "Youre ready?" asked . Far up in unkno t strange and eerie laughter.

        I nodded. Oh, yes, I was ready.

        At t Pablo appeared in t of    really    t animals eyes are aluro o us y.    on a geous silk smoking jacket. ired    t black eyes. So y erased, for too chery.

        e joined o me in a lo;Brote you to a little eai. For madmen only, and one prily—your mind. Are you ready?"

        Again I nodded.

        tude, , me , and ducted us upstairs to a small round room t    from t and nearly empty. t but a small round table and t ourselves.

        ting in a blue ligmospratum of reality t reme.

        e? alking so muot peralk, spoke, indeed,    not, too, my o plated me out of    and frig as it    of hermines gray ones?

        Pablo looked at us good-naturedly as ever and alked mucive sentences, , , discoursed noly and    a fault.

        "My friends, I ed you to aertai tle late and no doubt ,    and refrestle."

        From a recess in took t little bottle, also a small oriental box inlaid ly colored le and taking ttes from tc of    . And notes aste terly unfamiliar. Its effect    peacefully exaking little sips at lasses,    ourselves groer and more serene.

        From far away came Pablos warm voice.

        "It is a pleasure to me, my dear o    in a small en been sorely riving, , for escape? You o forsake ts reality and to pee to a reality more native to you, to a ime. You kno you seek. Only s t oty for s being o you no picture gallery but your ounity, to make your o is all."

        Again    o t of    and dre a round looking glass.

        "Look, it is t you ;

        tle glass before my eyes (a y mind: "Little glass, little glass in t;) and I sainctly and cloudily, tion of an uneasy self-tormented, ineppenened eyes t smoldered no, as a tributary pours its cloudy turmoil into a river. In bitter strife, eacried to devour t    prevail. terably sad e figure of tiful shy eyes.

        "t; Pablo remarked and put t. I o y eyes and take a sip of the elixir.

        "And no; said Pablo, "tle talk. If your fatigue    you to my peep stle ter. ill you e?"

        e got up. itain aside, and er, aly in t a large number, indeed an incredible number, of narroo the boxes.

        "t; explained Pablo, "is our ter, and a jolly o is. I s to laug."    laug it    t. It    and peculiar laug I had heard before from below.

        "ttle ter of mine o as many boxes as you please, ten or a ly s you. It is a pretty et of pictures, my dear friend; but it e useless for you to go t as you are. You urn by o call your personality. You    guessed long si of time and ty, or    may be t you co describe your longing, means simply to be relieved of your so-called personality. t is to eer as you are, you acles of teppeo lay tacles aside and to be so kind as to leave your eemed personality    agaiise on teppeimulant t aken of may ly prepared you. You, er    bey, er at your disposal, . Onside, you    meet eaco go for a moment beain. I so introduce ."

        o t past a gigantic mirror t covered to vaulted ceiling.

        "No so and to teaco laugting up tertai—I    easy for me. You feel quite rust? Not afraid? ts good, excellent. You    fear and er our visionary roduce yourself to it by means of a trifling suicide, siom."

        ook out t mirrain and    in front of my face. Again I ed by tind cloudy refle,    and c t. I koo    too sincerely for its destru to cause me any sorrow.

        "You ion, my dear friend. t is all t is necessary. to do so, it    you greet it, if your mood permits, y laugo learn to laugrue o take ;

        I fixed my eyes on ttle mirror, oo, a faint but painful one like remembrance, or like    oppression gave o a ne a man feels racted ting out a deep breat time, t it     in t. And t exion and a desire to laugible t I o give o it.

        tself turned gray and c     rolling dohe endless corridor and disappeared.

        "ell laug; cried Pablo. "You o laugals yet. You eppen last. Its no good ake care t ays dead. Youll be able to leave ty bely. At our    meeting o brotter today. And if you still t ogetalk about musid Mozart and Glud Plato and Goeto your s tent. You and nooday at any rate. For naturally, your suicide is not a final one. e are in a magic ter; a ures, not realities. See t you pick out beautiful and c you really are not in love ionable personality any longer. Sill, er it, you need only    I ; (Again t laugiful and frig;And notle ceremony and quite a jolly one. You o cast aside tacles of your personality. So e    ;

        Laugurned me about so t I faced tic mirror on there I saw myself.

        I saant as my usual self, except t I looked unusually good- and laug I ime tnize myself before tioo pieces. A sed, a teill tic mirror    s of ant nition. Some of titudinous y-year-olds and ty-year-olds played leap frog. ty-year-olds and five-year-olds, solemn and merry, able, and even quite naked, long ions, left and rigo t of it. One, a young felloogeticularly pleased me, a good looking and    or seventeen years, sprang like ligo tices on t after    of a door on which was inscribed:

        ALL GIRLS ARE YOURS

        ONE QUARtER IN t

        t into t he door.

        Pablo too ly    all tless figures. I realized t I    to myself and to ter, and I    y from door to door and read on eacs alluring invitation.

        tion

        JOLLY ING

        GREAt    IN AUtOMOBILES

        attracted me. I opeepped in.

        I    at oo a ement. Cars, some of treets s. t to deat t o it ed and long-feared    broken out. On all sides lay dead and deposing bodies, and on all sides, too, smasorted and ful fusion and ly stirring placards, ters flamed like tor to side    to make an end at last of t and ocrats    from otomobiles. Set factories afire at last! Make a little room o so t tream and moor return to t and crete. Otly pake in try and some se and less cerms ified to tellect of t tide of anarced in a truly impressive y and education and justice, and praised mad most sublime iion of ts aid, men o tudied ted on t ted me as po, and I stood as deeply vinced in front of one as in front of turbed all time by t    on all round me. ell, t, genuine and ic ive and trical matters, all nonse bottom; but a ly pleasing gave empic expression to rove to prepare tru of t civilization of ours. In every eye I saru and murder, and in mioo tly. I joile joyfully.

        t of all,    my scav, turned up close beside me. I    sig, stro, most eager auresome of t as I sa blue eyes.    once I followed him joyfully.

        "Good Lustav," I cried ;I    seen you in ages. ever ;

        , just as o do as a boy. "t, jabbering and asking questions. Im a professor of t to kno, ts ;

        t came sn too it as nimbly as a monkey, broug to a standstill for me to get in. ts and cras of town and suburbs.

        "Are you on turers?" I asked my friend.

        "Os a matter of taste, so    out of at—tion it, I rat take t bottom its all took tocrats against ts. So noablistle. tten car, I ll    anot;

        S as t ctled on, and reacryside many miles distaraversed a o tains.    on a smootening road t led in bold curves beteep aining wall. Far below she blue surface of a lake.

        "Lovely vie; said I.

        "Very pretty. ell call it t or anoto crasc!"

        A tall pine greall branctle    made of boards to serve as an outlook and point of vantage. Gustav smiled runk and, breatlook post,    came purring at top speed up tement ense.

        "Aim at t; anded Gustav quickly just as t by betacked ts unumbling over, crasa into ths below.

        "Got ; Gustav laug;My tur."

        Anots packed in t. From t blue veil streamed out be filled me ty a face it mig at least emulate trious and spare pretty av,    turned, s engine ill running and turned absurdly in t suddenly ful explosion it burst into flames.

        "A Ford," said Gustav. "e must get do;

        e climbed doc soon burned out. Mean to to time it    cras as urly burned. One    ion. I searcs to see . I took one and read: tat twam Asi.

        "Very ty," said Gustav. "tter of fact, it is all one ims are called. t as    matter. t painful solution o    under er for ten minutes. Noo ;

        e ter tooting. e s it doood. It made a drunkeed over and lay gasping. One passenger ill sitting inside, but a pretty young girl got out unie and trembling violently. e greeted ely and offered our assistance. Soo muco speak and stared at us for a we dazed.

        "ell, first let us look after t; said Gustav and turo t of till g to    beleman    grey elligent, clear gray eyes    o be seriously ; at least, blood flowed from h and he held his neck askew and rigid.

        "Alloo introduce myself. My name is Gustav. e aken ty of sing your co address?"

        t us coolly and sadly out of his small gray eyes.

        "I am Attorney-General L," ;You    only killed my poor c me too, I fancy.    on us?"

        "For exceeding t."

        "e    traveling at more t;

        " erday is no longer normal today, Mr. Attorney-General. e are of t orcar travels is too great. e are destroying all cars and all ot;

        "Your rifles too?"

        "turn ed omorroer    of ted. ell, noo let in a little air."

        "Are you sing every one,    distin?"

        "Certainly. In many cases it may no doubt be a pity. Im sorry, for example, about ter, I presume."

        "No. Senograp;

        "So mucter. And no out, or let us carry you out, as to be destroyed."

        "I prefer to be destroyed ."

        "As you o ask you one more question. You are a public prosecutor. I never could uand or. You make your living by bringing otly, to trial and passien t t so?"

        "It is. I do my duty. It ly as it is to o deatoo ;

        "Quite true. Only    kill from duty, but pleasure, or mu amusement in killing people.    never amused you?"

        "You bore me. Be so kind as to do your ion of duty is unknoo you—"

        and made a movement of o spit. Only a little blood came, o his .

        "One moment!" said Gustav politely. "tion of duty is certainly unknoo me—no. I , I    t seemed to me to be duty and ies and my superior officers from time to time enjoined upon me    by any means good. I e. But granting t tion of duty is no longer knoo me, I still knoion of guilt—pery. I am o live. I am obliged to belong to a state, to serve as a soldier, to kill and to pay taxes for armaments. And no t t of life    me once more to ty of killing t did in time I o t. I ion to tupid gested o bits. I am glad to o peris."

        tor made an effort to smile a little ed.    succeed very ention .

        "Good," said ;So ;

        tty girl    doed.

        At t tooting of a car ing do full speed. e dretle to one side and, standing close against t to tly and t came to a standstill undamaged. e seized our rifles and quickly he newers covered.

        "Get out!" anded Gustav. ";

        t out of tly heir hands.

        "Is any one of you a doctor?" Gustav asked.

        their heads.

        "to remove tleman. . take o t to on ."

        tleman av gave t.

        tenograpo chese proceedings. I was glad we had made so fair a prize.

        "Madam," said Gustav, "you    your employer. I    bound to tleman by oties. You are noime presses. It able ;

        e all climbed up to our    in tree as fast as    feel very    ains and to tell us also t her name was Dora.

        Immediately after t steered carefully past turned oopping and thered speed.

        "Poltroon!" laugav and s to tove it in and he abyss.

        "Dora," I said, " you use firearms?"

        S, but augo load. S first and    ed court-plaster. But Gustav told     s s    better.

        "But o bee of us?" she asked.

        "Dont kno; said Gustav. "My friend ty girls. er you."

        "But t;

        "t any polid sucay quietly up    do tries to pass, or else ake a car and drive off in it a at us. Its all take. Im for staying ;

        And noooting of anot ed for and lay t.

        Gustav smiled. "Yes, too many men in t    so noticeable. But no everyone s air to breato drive as ice it. Of course,    rational. Its c as ime, mankind o keep its numbers in al means. Meanolerable situation in a rational e."

        "Yes," said I, " is good and necessary all t is not a good trains ries to reduce to rational order matters t are not susceptible of rational treatment. traordinarily rational, and boto a frig of life, because t so crudely. ticle. It is for madmen like us, pero en again."

        itav replied: "You talk like a book, my boy. It is a pleasure and a privilege to drink at suc of    oo dreamy for my taste. A couple of bucks    e das, and    kill t ;

        A car came and    oout red-faced maiculated ared up and do us h a revolver.

        "Get off ," Gustav sed doook aim at    him.

        After t aed. Apparently t about t it o enjoy ty of to and soon o roof. Sing could be tle and I stroked    cheeks.

        " to die t; s    past belo a gay parasol, a ladys tle of    doentedly on took a drink from ttle and ate sometinfoil out of ter emptying ttle    on, o Gustav: "Could you find it in you to s at t."

        "Youre not asked to," my friend gro    feel very fortable eit sigill in a state of innoce t necessary activities became stupid and repulsive. Pa blood! e     the same.

        "Do us stay ; Dora implored. "Lets go doo find someto eat in t you ;

        Dooo peal error. e set ourselves to climb do work, I kissed o vacy—

        Once more I stood in till excited by ting adventure. And everyions:

        MUtABOR

        tRANSFORMAtION INtO ANY ANIMAL OR PLANt

        YOU PLEASE

        KAMASUtRAM

        INStRU IN tS OF LOVE

        COURSE FINNERS; FORtY-tO DIFFERENt

        MEtICES

        DELIGhtFUL SUICIDE

        YOU LAUGO BItS

        DO YOU ANt tO BE ALL SPIRIt?

        t.

        DONFALL OF t

        MODERAtE PRICES. NEVER SURPASSED

        PENDIUM OF ARt

        tRANSFORMAtION FROM tIME INtO SPACE

        BY MEANS OF MUSIC

        LAUGEARS

        Et OF hUMOR

        SOLItUDE MADE EASY

        PLEtE SUBStItUtE FOR ALL FORMS OF

        SOCIABILItY.

        tions was endless. One was

        GUIDAN thE

        PERSONALItY. SUCCESS GUARANtEED

        to me to be o and I    in at this door.

        I found myself in a quiet t room ern fas t gla it e a similar geous silk jacket and he same dark and shining eyes.

        "Are you Pablo?" I asked.

        "I am not anybody," ;e    anybody. I am a cru in ty?"

        "Yes, please."

        "to place a fe my disposal."

        "My pieces—?"

        "Of to    play    pieces."

        o me and again I say of my personality broken up into many selves ook a dozen or so of t fingers and placed to speak in tonous ion or reading t en gohrough before.

        "taken and union t a man is an enduring unity is knoo you. It is also knoo you t man sists of a multitude of souls, of numerous selves. tion of ty of ty into ted t. Sce is in t as no multiplicity may be dealt ain order and grouping. It is     one only and binding and lifelong order is possible for tiplicity of subordinate selves. t sequences, and tage of simplifying tate-appointed pastors and masters and saving t. In sequence of ty,     t psy t    of building up trate to anyone     order tain to an endless multiplicity of moves in t sers, so do egrated self build up ever neerplay and suspense, aions t are eternally inexible. Look!"

        it touc and ly arra oo groups and families, games and battles, friendsies, making a small    orderly s evolutions before my enraptured eyes in play and strife, making treaties and figtles, iplying. It age, a moving breathless drama.

        tly over tly s all to a atively ists skill, made up a ionsas. ty , it    of terial, but t, time cif ly given out and tuations differently presented.

        And i built up one game after anot of t of myself, and every game ant resemblao every oto t eacirely new.

        "t of life," ;You may yourself as an artist develop t animation. You may plicate and enric as you please. It lies in your    as madness, in a    and all fantasy. Even learned men o a partial reition of t eng book, in ance of tists s up as sucalized. ake your little pieces aen give you pleasure. t today greo tions of an intolerable bugbear, you omorroo a mere lay figure. t game be t;

        I boitude to ted c ttle pieces in my pocket and he narrow door.

        My real iion o seat myself at on ternities; but I    liger passage tible current carried me along. A dazzling poster flashed before my eyes:

        MARVELOUS tAMING OF tEPPENOLF

        Many differeions surged up i t of t. My    racted by all kinds of fears and repressions from my former life and ty I    berembling ing me from a cage. On tage I saamer—a cleman e of a large moustacly muscular biceps and up    resemblao myself. trong man led on a leasable sigiful but terribly emaciated    ing as it riguing, as    ly eaining, to see tal tamer of animals put t so ignominiously obedie of prey tricks aional turns.

        At any rate, torted double, ly atteo every and and responded like a dog to every call and every crack of t do, a basket in o pick up t tamer    fall and carry it after eetail     in front of e lamb. eet is true, and trembled     touc trembling on t and t pao form a touc time eating a stick of ce from t o astic extent to ood th my hair on end.

        tion, ator and for t of ter tion of animal taming and    t and became as agitated, as st and dissimulation erased. aut and s at rec ure.

        And no t ongue loll out and tore eet on t or all-fours just as t ter ness of a dog ted gladly to every ion and perversion of ure. A lovely girl came on to tage and    up to tamed man. Sroked     . o seet ture—so menagly and , t se    before    emptuous sniff    it from . Finally te lamb and t mottled rabbit urn and played t amusingly. ures iore turously drank t.

        I made for t. ter was clearly no paradise. All s chere even here no release?

        In fear I . I aste of blood and    my mouteful as t to be beyond t. I led ures. "O Friend, not tes!" sang in my errible pograp t one saangled o grinning g of o ures. today I kne no tamer of beasts, no general, no insane person could c or a picture in    I could not matc as frig as savage and upid.

        itice I    enteri tormed so furiously—

        ALL GIRLS ARE YOURS

        and it seemed to me, all in all, t tly ding t I could escape from t cursed    in.

        time met me. tmosp so legendary,    I    and been since, fell a it    of fire t I felt iy impulse, t    I ten leaped up again, ole on my ears tones of long ago! My blood een or sixteen in and Greek and poetry. I ion and my fancy ists dreams. But far deeper and stronger and more ahe foreboding of desire.

        I anding on a spur of ttle tos to I sa iransfiguration, as ry. it    it and smelled it ( it bet no girl o bite it. At tically bitter taste I kne ond exactly     I    all came back. I    on a lonely    Rosa Kreisler and greeted h her so madly.

        S day, alone and dreamingly up to of ied in ts, rands oime in my life iful siful and dreamlike te iful and provocative t as tter spice of t of t moment aiies and promises, nameless deligs, anguiso t and deepest guilt. Oter taste of spring on my tongue! And reamed playfully t stle and looked aside; but ing    e groirely mistress of tuation, s slo I sent after her.

        So it y-five years before, and all t o me in t. oe, Rosa and    suffocation of anguis    seemed to me t I    day. But time it o greet    occasion. I sao ceal it, and I kne o s ter meant time instead of standing ceremoniously cap in ill se of anguis my blood bade me do. I cried: "Rosa! tiful, beautiful girl. I love you so dearly." It    per brilliant of all t mig t, but t    on    go on. Sopped and looked at me and, gro;;    up rong face, and t my past life and loves upid un very moment on a Sunday afternoon ly and everything was good.

        e clasped    knoo do or to say, so o er from embarrassment and to a run, and ran till    our breato stand still. But    let go our ill oe o do    Sunday    even kiss, but o get our breat on troked    up again and tried to measure y, I aller by a fingers breat I     so. I maintai ly t and t God    later on    ss and    in t spring grass and looked for t stalks and I gave    ting ced lo go    t apany    no    possession. I stayed be, I looked dooc little figure to appear far belo pass t so room, and I lay up t t passed to and fro.

        e saimes over to bloom tle t co give eacured to touds of     all t    roted ill unripe, but timid ing on eacaugtle step up on ts, I lived again t under ars. Rosa I lost, and Irmgard appeared; and tars less steady, but Irmgard no more tep by step I o climb. to live to learn; and I o lose Irmgard and Anna too. Every girl t I    noo inspire eaco eae. isies t ion y. tiful flowers, Ida and Laura and all wh, or a day.

        I    good-looking and ardent boy    t in my actual life and being    been expressed to a tent, and I    to tc groed by any ot of me. It    perturbed by tortured by teppen, t. No—I    taugo dand Ida to kiss, and it , t beautiful of tumn evenis to kiss and to drink.

        I lived ttle ter and not a t    be told in    so give and to eac so take. Muc, too, and sufferio my s I e and tender blooms, garis blazed, dark ones sly fading. t, iaken by storm and t o    er of my life , te skin allured me, emerged again and all t ood beside er of an er    and t of . tream carried toream of sex, at play in t of all its cs danger and surprise. And it astoniso find eppenies and allurements of love. I umbled oe tet t ored up in t one missing. And no I sao t defend sank doo tion to    fully grasped at time, fantastic games for t me up in t uioned, were played.

        o tream of allurement and vid enta, I . I —ripe for    figure in my populous myt name of an endless series; and at once I came to myself and made an end of tale of love; for I did not     as to    t all ered in o fulfillment.

        tream ood in t ter passage.    no for ttle figures in my pocket—but already tible ices and magic mirrors. Listlessly I read t    caught my eye, and shuddered.

        hO ONE KILLS FOR LOVE

        said.

        Sly a picture .    table of a restaurant, turning all at once from t in an abyss of speecerrifying earness in    s    s. Suddenly everyted me once more. Suddenly once more t call of fate gripped my . Desperately I felt in my pocket for ttle figures so t I migise a little magid rearra of tead of t a knife. In mortal dread I ran along t every door. I stood opposite tic mirror. I looked into it. In tood a beautiful all as myself. ood still, glang s eyes. As    me, tle so t ed and songue.

        clever fello ty?

        Again I looked into t ongue in     was a o.

        "; I said, ";

        "Not; said ;I am only ing. I am ing for deat;

        ";

        "ing," said ty spaces er tiful and a musi Don Giovanni t    of sto rang tly als.

        "Mozart," I t, and    beloved and t exalted picture t my inner life tained.

        At t, t beer, a dear and ice-cold laug of a o men, a , frozen ter, and t.    and, strolling quietly on,    in. Eagerly I follo, all my life long, of love and veion. t    of ter noto be seen. Darkness filled the boundless space.

        "You see," said Mozart, "it goes all rig to be sure, I s read on toes of t famous instrument."

        "; I asked.

        "e are in t act of Don Giovanni. Leporello is on oo. t in it, certainly, ts very    you    —ter, e;

        "It is t great music ever ten," said I y of a scer. "Certainly, t to e.    not fet tro? Ooo. But all t—beautiful as it may be— it, sometegration. A ude and power as Don Giovanni ;

        "Dont overstrain yourself," laug, in frig;Youre a musi yourself, I perceive. ell, I rade aired to take my ease. It is only for amusement t I look on at t;

        ing, and a moon, or some pale stellation, rose some and clouds floated tains and seasended    plain. On tleman of a , en t said:

        "Look, triving for redemption, but it ake ime."

        I realized t tes and parts in o divine judgment were superfluous.

        "too trated, too mucerial ed," Mozart said h a nod.

        And t t just as vast, aoo, cep.

        "In my young days," I remarked sadly, "t extreme trasts ceivable."

        Mozart laughed.

        "Yes, t is alrasts, seen from a little distance, alend to sy. tration     of time."

        "? And    to pay for it so dearly?" I cried in protest.

        "Naturally. t take its course. Until t of time it ot be kno over to stand to t."

        "But t eit!"

        "Of course not. t    eit Adam ate t to pay for it all t;

        "But t is frig;

        "Certainly. Life is al one is guilty. You must    ious education if you did not kno."

        I    of tten, and all ticles and essays; folloors o set up, by t all to s all to be paid for in endless purgatory. And only tion arise    over; or y foam of t was over and done.

        Mozart laug urned a somersault in trills    time ed at me: "ongue smart, man, do your lungs really piers, tctors, and saber-itc of a gull, ers ink dull, and soul sorroll relieve you. Belittled, betattled, spectacled and sifully snagged and by tail ill t sings and rotten plagiarisings ill-gotten."

        too muc me no time for melanc    by tail and off ail greail of a et and I . t it raversed! tals put up mosp it , even in t t elapsed before I lost my senses. A bitter-seel-brigy coursed to laug    th and sciousness failed me.
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